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2009-04-15T20:49:00.001+08:00

Yupp apart from the fact that I've not been blogging, I've been aimlessly searching for means and ways to do so without much hassle, which, until now, has been aimlessly ridiculously time consuming and stupid.
Now, there's TWITTER!! http://twitter.sg/smstweet/linkback.php?id=Easybusy
Woo twitter is so good in a sense I can "blog" using my handphone and sending SMS-es out to update my twitter page. NICE.

WHY THE WORLD AM I BLOGGING?

2009-01-10T03:41:00.003+08:00

My liking for blogs trailed off so quickly in 2006 it produced a negative impression of blogs. So.. WHY AM I BLOGGING AGAIN?

Why did I not like blogs then? I think it was because of the fact that blogs were personal. Blogs could show anything and everything hurtful or puzzling. It can completely alter the events of the people reading them, influencing them to think a certain way and swaying them to a critical opinion or what not. BUT. THE MAIN THING ABOUT THESE BLOGS.. People know of their existance. Others know of their status - being constantly updated and providing the latest news about stuff happening in their lives and views on them. Not that it's the reason why I didn't like blogs but it's almost like blogs were made FOR people to see. The content was directed. It is not what a person really feels. It has an audience and authors tune their words to get the objective they desire in blogging.

WHAT ABOUT THIS ONE? NO ONE KNOWS! Unless you read this and you realise I am blogging again! ((: Then congratz. Well until it becomes public, it's a diary of thoughts BITSY IS HAVING!

Note To Self:

2009-01-04T18:34:00.004+08:00

Does anyone know this blog is reviving? (: I wouldn't know.

My best friends will know soon! WHO EXACTLY ARE MY BEST FRIENDS? Goodness. Do all of them know that I treat them as best friends? But what does one do to let them know?
Let me see. I think 3 of them know that they are. (: They should know who they are when they see this. You could say that they are at the top of the list (: But are they all?
There's 1 from BMTC that I really want to stay close to forever. God bless that Christian. I hope he doesn't mind having another best friend. Does he know who he is?
There's 1 from my first unit that I really wanted to be very close to. But it seems he's drifting from me.
There're 2 from my JC class that I can definitely call my close friends. I would like to treat them as best friends but they don't seem to treat me as one.

How do you show and let them know? O WELLS. Just a thought.

I need to prepare now. Going to book in soon. Will write more when I book out. (:

I HAVE A BLOG!

2009-01-04T00:58:00.003+08:00

WHOA I totally remember this blog! I have not touched it for like, forever.. HMM.. I think I'm going to revive it!!

YEAHH. Let's see who will be the first one to know that I've revived it. XP

For now.. I shall sleep in anticipation of the next time I shall blog.. In somewhat "silence".

19th May

2006-05-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

CRAP.. i wrote a super long entry and the computer hanged.... sianz!!!!!

it's been alomst 2 weeks that i haven't blogged yet! hahaz... but it doesn't matter as almost nobody visits this dead blog anywayz...

6th May

2006-05-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

OMY! SO STRESSED! i have so much hmwk! overdue ones... i have to study for tests! which i have no clue about... i have to prepare for my ccas! especially since i'm exco... i have to research for PW! we haven't even started gpp yet... AHHHHHH

hmm, let me see...yesterday kenny and i went back to cat high to collect cert... his was so nice... As all the way while mine had 2 B3s... i met alice long, triston fernandez, anna tan and tan ping hock... OMY! they were like, "BRYAN! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN???" and i was like," err.. fine.. i'm in victoria, thank you so much for everything.." they were all super buy cause it was the prelim period for the secondary 4s... anna was like," come down for peer mentoring.. TRY ya?" hahaz.. i'm already so BUSY! and i'm such a lazy guy! i really had hoped to see aaron+dexter... aaron had pw and dexter had cca, so they couldn't come cat high! >.<

anywayz me and kenny did a little shopping and we went to muji-the land of marcus huang... hahaz.. all the bottles of liquid and AROMA therapy oil.. kenny saw the tester... then i suggested he try a bit... we saw this bottle of like sanitizer gel... so i poured some on kenny's hand... ALOT came out... then he rubbed it on his palm and it was LIQUID SOAP! the bubbles were forming and forming! OMY! he rushed to the toilet to wash la... hahaz... muji sells BICYCLES! OMY... the bicycles looked like recycled scrap metal la... so funny... my camera had no battery otherwise i would have taken a photo! SO OMY!

hahaz... such a fun day! it's always soooo nice to have someone PEI WO- accompany me, juz in case hazreen and redzuan read my blog and dun unserstand... yupp... the feeling when someone accompany me is the "I'M SO TOUCHED" feeling la... OMY i miss my secondary school bfs and gfs..

3rd May

2006-05-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

blogger did not upload my 1st may entry till today.. sianz..

i am thinking of joining the cca chairperson's camp.. dunno if it's gonna be like boot camp things... ewww... i don't want an early army... AGAIN...

1st May

2006-05-01T15:45:00.000+08:00

hmm... today's peesheng and alford's bday.. time really flies... let me see...

i've known wilsontan, kangrui for 4 years liao... how was it then? my goodness... have i grown so much? how often did i cry in school? well, everyone have different ideas... omy... i'm growing older and older la.. sec 1 i didn't have alot of pimples... now practically moon surface la... sec 1 was interesting in a way that alot of competitions were won by us... alot... that carried on in sec 2... i miss everyone... but it seems that the less u talk to them, the more harder it gets talking to them again... and if i do talk to 2703 ppl, it seems more uneasy... i think it's cause i wasn't very close to thme even after i became sec 3? omy la.. haizzzzz waaaaaaaah..

then again, it also applies to my sec 4 class... as in, people do change and no on can do anything abt it... they may seem different but it's always abt the assurance! so touching... it's like knowing some of them still bother to ask if i am surviving well in vjc since absoultely NOBODY frm 4-6 went there besides me... HAIZZ... ya... not even julius who was the main reason why i came here anyway is in vjc! hahaz... totally miss them.. almost all of them la... >.<

the weak and frail and emotional bryan is ENJOYING VJC! OMY... almost everyone new... how did bryan do it? heehee... the people here totally rox- that's the main reason... and YAY i got kenny and nigel here too... God totally pathed my way la! heehee... was kinda an unexpected SET of events...

THANK GOD

30th April

2006-04-30T12:07:00.000+08:00

it's never about the truth... it's always about whether the truth hao ting or not... >.<

28th April

2006-04-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

what's a president's supposed to do? >.< then what about a vice? juz as bad... SIANZ

26th April

2006-04-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

OMY! like, 2 weeks 2 days not blogged... >.<

yesterday i decided to.. for-go PE :) nicer way of saying pon la... hahaz... i went for PAWS talk and it began at 5.25pm! which is immediately after PE ends... the talk was about animal abusal... lemme say something: DON'T BUY ANY ANIMAL RELATED PRODUCTS FROM CHINESE MEDICINE DOCTORS... why? cause the animals have to suffer for the "medicine" to be there! OMY la... i watched people stab the bear at the bowel of the bear to collect the bowel liquid! so TOTALLY EWWWWW! haizzzzz... the bear is kept in a 1x1x0.5 m cube cage where the bear cannot even stand! ultimate grossness... i wish i had a pic to show... anywayz, the bear would be lying in there in pain and some would have gone insane- banging on the cage to escape... the liquid would juz flow into a bowl below them... i wanted to cry la! >.<

i saw poor piglets as in BABY piglets SQUEALING in pain as they had their ears cut, teetch sawed off and anus sliced off (with pathetic iodine applied after that) they were tortured SOOOOOOOO MUCH before slaughter that they were WAILING and WAILING for their lives, trying to jump their way of out the crate... so emotionally disturbing coz i saw people actually IMPALING the pig... SO TOTALLY OMY! >.<>

haizzzzzzz PAWS president of 2006 must do a good job ahz... >.<

10th April

2006-04-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

No thank you... Next time this happens, i'll be ignorant.. Try me.. Stop at that... Before it gets too much.. thanks! AI NI! XD hahaz... so much for another egg incident... d-g..

6th April

2006-04-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

Running for PRESIDENTof Pet & Animal Welfare and VICE-PRESIDENT of Library Council... Hopefully i'll get both... XD

3rd April

2006-04-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

Why did i DESPERATELY want to change uni??? long pants is sooooooo ARGH! esp when it's raining... the whole thing below the knee gets freaking wet... i miss having to wear shorts for official reasons.... >.<

27th March

2006-03-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

For starters, jeremiah, the previous post is not exactly approved... but i will leave it there provided ur name stays... COZ u DO have a point... only thing is... it's an individual case by case that u have to look at it upon... the circumstances are different as personality and upbringing comes to play a part also lo...

marcus, i hope ur okies... at least God will answer prayers.... remember that... people have been praying for you... don't worry okies? that goes for you too jeremiah... hahaz...

I want to say that all sorts of people have different problems... it's who they run to, what information or advice they get and how they react to such an issue that determines whether the issue is resolved or not... even looking at it in another perspective can TOTALLY CHANGE the problem... whatever the case, God loves us and giving in to the devil is not a solution...

HITOSHURA: Time to RANT!

2006-03-27T00:33:00.000+08:00

This post is going to be friggin random, I've seen some stuff during holidays and would like to rant about them, bear with it.

I wonder sometimes... Do the people we meet come and go? To be honest, the 4-6 dinner was pretty fun, prolly cuz after being alone at home for 3 solid months, chatting with old friends feels good.

But disgustingly, only 15-17 people turn up out of 37 people. Many simply just told Javier they didn't wanna go, i found that many many of my classmates are so caught up with their new JC pals almost to a point like seeing a kid dumping his old toys aside and start playing with the new one.

What's up with everyone? What's so hot about their new, shiny brand-new friends? Honestly, i, myself am totally NOT excited about meeting new friggin people in Singapore poly, lucky for me, Zhitian from 4-1 happen to be in the same course as me.

Reading marcus yip's blog, the dude is the complete opposite of the people i mention, that guy is totally suicidal and is totally upset about not having any true friends, that guy is right about one thing. He said: "What's the need of a friend who can only use words to comfort you?" Then on his tag, some stupid girl wrote: "What's up with you? Don't be so sad, Link me k?"....... The irony and stupidity of this world is overwhelming.

Speaking of sadness, teens these days have alot of emotional crap, feeling moody, crushed, irritated, depressed and other rubbish, maybe i'm still immature, cuz i don't feel any of it. But one should know that all this emotional rollercoasters stuff are what create problem teens.

Problem teens... I have seen far too many of those... in my church, that is. 90% of the church-going teens i know go to church because they have family problems (and after tactful coaxing by their church-going friends). And its not like they really improved that much after attending mass or something, in fact, they hook up with some cute girls beside them during mass and its back to square one for their friggin' problems. That's for my church though, don't know about the rest. Ya want me to name an example? Melvin koh, hey, dude, i still hate you, you suck, heard you got kicked out of CJ? Congrats! I once knew a guy in my church class (not talking about melvin), he was this good-boy image in church but was skate-boarding and smoking his ass off after he got out of church, oh well...

Going back to the 4-6 dinner, Javier, you are a nice guy, but you have to face reality, in 2 months time, ALL contact within 4-6 will be cut off, no more sms, no more calls, its carrying on with lives, I would really respect the guy who will try to keep the relationship among 4-6 together, but even he might give up, Javier complained that practically everyone ignored his sms for the dinner. What the hack is going on? Are they really THAT busy? To ignore an invitation at around 6 in the evening? Reflect on what you have done, losers.

Those who turned up had an argument with Javier over a friggin $3 dollars difference in the dinner, man, i swear i could see javier looking like crap, i mean he must have felt really really sad that everyone was unhappy with his self-motivated dinner invitation. I feel sad for that guy. You did well, Jav, its the friggin' class fault.

As time goes by, people would walk their own paths, but the reason why i react so strongly is cuz i didn't expect all classmates to "defect" THAT fast.

Reflect and Learn.

26th May

2006-03-26T17:18:00.000+08:00

Lemme give an explanation to jeremiah first yars? i don't want to upload the images here as it will take a loooooong time... might have as well send them to you via msn... unfortunately you don't have... e mail cannot attach such big files and i can only break them down into about 10 different e mails and send them to you... which is so troublesome...

That's all...

23rd March

2006-03-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

I really should be studying... Got my chinese test tomorrow... not that it matters alot if i study as my results won't necessarily improve anywayz...

Justin, joel, hazreen and redzuan are the soccer guys in my class... Now, competition guys usually do stuff to actually boost their chances in winning a match... like (what's that guy's name?) jeremy i think from likai's church... he's from hua chong if i'm not wrong... he's in track and has to shave his hair whenever he has competitions... SO EWWWW LA!!! i mean, a few seconds off the clock because you reduced air resistance because there's no hair to resist air is vital la... but the hair just looks so.... OMY LA! the soccer guys came to school and POOF! they had shaved hairs la.... so nice to touch though... dunno why soccer requires them to shave... not as if running matters alot in soccer... track i can understand ba... hahaz... so if charmaine has to go for competition, SHAVE!!!!!!

Now, i seriously marc becomes the student council president... then i'll have the president in my class!!! so honourable la... i guess... right???? all i hope is that he won't become too formal in class like jeremy lim that kind where........... OMY! the food.... he told mr wang that cristian was eating in class... that was sooooo funny la... mr wang was like stunned then DIAOZ! all the best for marc... i most probably will vote for marc and either george or zara... or better still, if i can vote twice, then i'll vote marc twice XD

PAWS is the best cca ever... however, why is it a second cca for other people??? so sianz if i'm the only one more enthu about it? doesn't make sense right??? I WANT DOGS ROAMING IN THE SCHOOL................ LOLX... alot of commmitment though.... wouldn't it be nice if the dog visited during classes? like a welcomed person lo... can take a short break cuddling the doggie.... SO KEWL LA!!! awwwwww nice dream la... maybe in the future PAWS will become an organisation where abandoned pets and animals come to us and we take care of them, hiring workers to be there for them 24/7... OMY!!!! whatever lo.........

22nd March

2006-03-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

YES! It's been a WHOLE MONTH! i have not blogged for at least a whole month... funny thing how i always started with "so long haven blog le", then because there's too much to say i lose track and i don't bother typing totally... hahaz

I don't even know where to start... all i can say is... i will start typing my events of the day tomorrow... after all, i haven done any homework at all, and this seems more fun... XD lolx... I WANNA PARAPARA!!!!! >.<

OFFICIAL RE-OPENING OF EASYBUSY'S BLOG.... new skin ahead if i can find one lo XD...

HITOSHURA:I'm back.

2006-02-20T09:08:00.000+08:00

Lets see... i'm me, i'm Boon. Stop mistaking me for bryan, people, our talking methods are world's apart.

To put it practically, i have retained my place in my big family of uncles and aunties.Getting 14 points was a good thing, they were all calling me and praising me to high heavens. After all.. my paternal cousin got 21 points for L1R5, while the older one went ITE. So even if i suck outside in the real world, i'm like the best in my family. Its always good to hear relatives praise you over something so insignificant... makes you laugh at them, and feel good about yourself.

As for my maternal side cousin, HooHah, i beat her too.. she got 19 points. Her mother was pretty snobbish at first. Saying her daughter can reach VJC, but i told her: "we'll see".. and, we finally saw it.

Its really pretty sad that bryan's blog is frequented by 2 people most of the time. I never fail to switch on my com every morning, even when my nose is has some trickling mucus on it... like now.

Joke of the week. lee hak boon (CHS principal) was like trolling over how bad we have done for O levels. saying that we are the worst of our time. Hell, he even say that some of us might feel sad after getting the results. What kind of principal says that? And.. when the results came out, everyone was jumping around, with a joker's expression on their faces, WE ARE HAPPY, DAMMIT. You should have seen hak boon's face when he totally expected a cold and sad aftermath.

Joke of the year 2005. Art is never a good subject to take. I'll tell ya why, its heavy in politics, stuff like biasness, favourism, cheating gets out of hand in there. CHS employed an old hag of doom, who remarkably claimed herself as the "walking batik expert" If you don't know batik, it is some sort of design done on silk in Malay tradition. This old hag charged extensively, about 200 to 300 bucks a person. And she adores marcus huang, my self-proclaimed biatchy rival. God knows what actually happen between both of them *snigger* There are a total of 4 students in the entire art class, other than me and marcus, you do not have to worry about the details of the other 2 yet. You see, this batik expert taught CHS last year's batch of 7 sec4 art students and they ALL did batik, and they ALL got A1, so she starts to shoot her mouth off like nobody's business. We, the new students suffered in her new-found pride. She goes like: "do batik and get A1, do anything else and you die". Fine. Whatever.

It become decided later. 3 students will do batik, 1 will do painting, and yes, marcus got the painting, since she said she have "incredible confidence in dear marcus in producing a perfect painting" fine, i accept it, marcus WAS after all good in painting. But why the hell do i have to do batik, i opted out, but she screwed me in the face: "Jeremiah, if you don't do batik, there is nothing else you can do" Great, so now i'm some useless art student who can't even hold a freakin pencil? I told her i didn't care and i wanna do painting. So she gave in.

In case you haven't known, she gives us the ideas. She gave marcus a splendid chinese opera suggestion and got that ass workin right away. She gave the other 2 batik opinions and they work up too. She gave me nothing(!) and said she have to figure out what i'm going to draw first so she ask me to go home and think about it too. i thought about ideas, lots of them, but they got rejected, everyone of them, said they were too childish, too simple, fine, but her ideas were worse off. She said " Get a camera, take a picture of the students running at the track and paint it, you are done" GREAT IDEA, huh? stupid old hag.

Our project started on april or may, for the time period of may to august, i did nothing, i got nowhere, i just kept drawing hoping i find something, but nothing, she changed my idea to handicapped youths, then to handicapped elderly, then to retarded youths. For christ sake, i almost became retarded myself. I was almost going to get my ass handed to me when she said, "you are hopeless, jeremiah, just draw and hand it up, i don't care." Hopeless indeed, i threw a tantrum, told the official art teacher that i'm not coming back to this class anymore but i will continue the painting, I took all my stuff home, including the bulky canvas board. You know what, my father is prolly the best art guy around, he's ranked a frickin' 1st in Nanyang academy of fine arts in his year. He became my teacher at home, and we sat down every night to discuss of a whole new idea. I got to work and everyday, after school, i rushed home to paint till 11.00 at night. I ain't complaining, its my home and i can grab a drink while painting, listen to some songs and stuff. So it's cool.

Its not bragging, but perhaps i should let people who know me, know me more, my parents first met in nanyang academy of fine arts, and i have not attended one freakin art school before. I was just given a bunch of papers everyday when i was in Kindergarden when i had nothing to do, i drew power rangers, then batman, then Predator and alien, then i drew my parents. i even tried to win a girl's heart during kindergarden by drawing her a PINK ranger. Sure enough, she allowed me to kiss her forehead, but i don't know where the heck she is now. I'm not lying, seriously. I'm confident to say that i got my parents genes.

And so, i painted up the final painting and submitted it, 2 batik, 2 paintings in my art class. And the cream of the joke... O level results came out and we were shown a slide before getting the results back. 50% distinction in ART, 100% passes. meaning only 2 got A1. Turns out that me and marcus were the ones, the other 2 casulties of the old hag's ignorance and stupidity did not get an A1. meaning they have wasted time on it. Why? batik is incredibly difficult and requires a hell lot of time. Try painting a cloth with hot wax, you will prolly cry and get a backache since you can't move too much or the wax might go all over the place.

That why, i would be exciting to see her stupid face if she knows her batik just failed to net an A1, walking batik expert indeed, old hag. And her judgement of me being hopeless was obviously wrong, she honestly didn't know who she was up against, i can tell ya that. My 2 years in art elective was a horrible one, any advice to those who plan to take art in JC or secondary, think again, its not just about drawing and handin' it up, there's more to it.. Much, much more...

16th February

2006-02-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

*GASP GASP* i haven blogged seriously for a very long time!!! i'm going to sit here for at least half an hour blogging... but the show now is very interesting la!!!

For the record... I GOT 8 POINTS FOR O LEVLES! well, alot of people very sad for me... they all said i could do much better... but it's okies i guess, since i'm not sad about my results... AT least i can stay in victoria!!! 06s52 ROCKS!!!!!! i mean yar... i love it here in victoria jc... so julius, i MUZ thank you!!! hahaz... even if u cannot come here, HAVE FUN AND TAKE CARE IN ACS I!!!! u MUST ahz!!! XD 06s52...

the people here are MAD la... and majority of my classmates are STAYING! XD i'm juz so high about that... zaneta and wan ting were almost not staying la!! juz so happy that they have decided to stay! ^^

okies... Paws is like, my ULTIMATE favourite cca, IF THEY MEET UP 1ce a week! it's like, 1ce a fortnight!!! >.< i like the people here la!!! mainly j1s... O YEAH!!! got another j1 guy... darrel!! WOOHOO! i'm not the only j1 guy now... MUAHAHAHA! juz love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bridge is a >.< attended it once only... like, play bridge only... no clique with the members... at all

library maybe have a clique with "mummy" and si min and some jc2s.... VYDIA!! OMY! she's quite nice at times... hahaz...

that's super brief a post la.. >.< i wanna go watch tv now!!!

12th Feburary

2006-02-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

I HAVE NOT BLOGGED FOR 2 WEEKS! *GASP* i remember i used to love blogging... now i can't seem to find the motivation to do so again... TOO MUCH TO SAY NOW!! >.< it's like homework... pile up so much now i don't feel like writing... speaking of which... i haven started my homework... OH NO! argh TOO MUCH TO SAY! TOO MUCH!

adopt your own virtual pet!

why dexter? hahaz... why not joshh or jeremiah my loyal friends?? HEEHEE! if it's very blurr, click the treats!! play with dexter :P

28th January

2006-01-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

It's been exactly been a week since i blogged...

VJC ROX!!!!! it's hard to explain... there are a few factors that make it ROX!!! firstly, and this applies to all tertiary instituions... there are girls... Girls are more cheerful than guys, more open than guys, more sensitive than guys, more accepting than guys and actually more forgiveing than guys... i'm saying this based on my first 3 weeks in VJC thus far only, and my views are subject to change... secondly, this school is the more enthu kind in a sense, when there's mass dance, no one is embarassed to do it... even the guys... there's this enthusiasm and spirit that just makes the bonding so great that no one is afraid of being themselves for fear they lao kui or get laughed at... thirdly, the school teachers are really supportive of the students and extremely co operative... like our principal... she'll like, follow suit the schedule set by the students so that what the students plan run smoothly... no violent objections also la...

I went back to cat high by hired bus thanks to jion chun!! $2 quite worth it... thanks jion chun... i didn't attend the hall CNY ceremony... no one i knew there so not very worth it... i went to aaron gian's house first... horrible aaron... he showed me the SCARY the HOUSE webbie la... then every part that was scary he screamed and i would scream also juz because he screamed... T_T so freaking scary la... even though most of the time my eyes wern't looking at the screen... after that we went back to school to meet anna, went off and i went home again... okies... SEEING MI classmates after a short period of time wasn't that exciting or anything... i want to like, wait 1-2 months.. then meet up and see who changed here and there and who is attached to who and what! IT WOULD BE SOOOOOOOOO NICE LA! imagine aaron gian got a gf... OMY! awwwwwwww i'll be so happy for him la........ i JUZ love seeing ppl i know get lovey dovey! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!! so nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmm... this goes for juniors, cat high bowlers, mi cell, mi tuition mates and ESP 2703!!! =D

21st January

2006-01-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so horrid... Sorry d, sorry k...

I don't think you should trust no one...

It's wrong...

And all because i wanted more scandal... which I actually have more than enough

That makes ry, a and j-w upset with me now.. not so much because I asked but beacause i wanted to for the wrong reasons i guess...

D has said it's okies and thanked me... i guess... i hope she is okies now...

K said he's not angry... but he's not showing it... he's probably going to stay that way...

J-w said i should feel guilty... he meant it... so i can't blame him cause he's right...

Ry and a were disappointed... they don't seem so now but i'm not sure... at least they are going to act what they preach... I respect them alot

The rest are supportive of me, some more some less...

That's why you must not trust no one...

R is not so happy at me for probably blurting... What worse was that i didn't know the whole thing... That's why i asked in the first place... How would I know it had to do with her..

Haiz... God help me...

19th January

2006-01-19T18:01:00.000+08:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

No engineering? i don't think i can take these la...

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

WHAT THE... inaccuracy...

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda

You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.
While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

Much better... >.<

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.
You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.
You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

This is as bad as it gets...

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$333,707

At What Price Would You Sell Out?

HAAAA.... i'm cheaper than my house?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.

You are also giving and kind - a great friend.

You are easy going and trusting.

However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

The last sentence may be wrong... :P

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How Scary Are You?

awwww.... i hope that's true...

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

I'm afraid of blood la...

Your Birth Month is December

You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe.
Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity.

Your soul reflects: Celebration, success, and wealth

Your gemstone: Blue Topaz

Your flower: Narcissus

Your colors: Indigo, green, and blue-green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

they are beginning to contradict...

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

YAY!

15th January

2006-01-15T15:28:00.000+08:00

The cca i am joining is: PAWS... short form of Pet and Animal Welfare Society... the very first session was more like a briefing... Kahei is the president... and since it's a student-run organisation, OMY! slack... hahaz... okies... Kahei said that PAWS is in need of more guys, and for J2... there was 1.5 guys... -.-" vice president is a guy and one of the members is a half guy... aiya... kahei was very detailed but i guess u get the picture... there is only 1 J1 male joining this year(2 male IP1s-one who seems like jay in project runway and the other is VERY familiar but i cannot describe...) ... hahaz!! so it's 6 girls to 1 guy... anywayz... it's kinda easy to imagine a girl like, all LOVEY DOVEY over animals... well, it is quite hard to picture a guy... i met a few ppl on the 1st day! :) fredrick-the jay guy, zara who loves to talk abt project runway, so there's a commonality we share, swan and deborah... both tkgs girls, quite sweet... they should be staying... but for me, PAWS is permanent...

PAWS is core cca i'm afraid :P i chess and bridge fall under the same category... strategic games club... (there's dota but... FORGET IT!) now, esther and joshua are in the i chess club... most of the time would be spent like, talking, gossiping... HAHAZ! i think kenny wants to join too... not so sure now...

T_T i can't identify all the cat high ppl in school... T_T some wave at me and i wave back... funny thing is... they ALL noe me... i don't.... usually, they gather in groups and i don't know them... so usually, i would occasionally talk to some of them, aiya, i feel very out and sometimes lonely! T_T never mind... hahaz...

MY OG PPL ROX but... deegee, ruth, kenny, jonathan and of all ppl.... RUTH WONG (different ruth) all make fun of me... okies... ruth wong is a sweet girl and at least she has her limits so eventually even though it's obviously smiting me, it's actually kinda funny... DEEGEE AND RUTH... haizz... lolx... okies la... IP2 girls=sec 3 this yr, so naturally, yar... their whole class knows me now, and they look at me wherever i pass the whole group of them... when i turn around they smile tha sly sly smile... sometimes it's irritating, most of the time, it's kinda funny that people waste time looking at me... kinda worthless if u put it in this sense la... not that i dun like kenny or jonathan, but they are playing along deegee and ruth! not that i dun like deegee and ruth also... SO COMPLICATED! then there's their rachael!!! i dun know her, she doesn't "KNOW" me, that's equivalent to a KVETCH! hahaz... so wrong!... prettier and younger girls are the meanest to me... my age ones are the best... lolx... which reminds me... J-Wei kinda reminds me of him... like, beginning of sec 3 was liddat also... now at least i know what to do... hmm...

O6S52... nigel is in my class!! primary 5 i would nvr imagine he would be my classmate again in J1... this....... is......... an........ ENTHU bunch... i mean the guys... it was after long sessions of tutorials and boring lectures, finally we have 35 mins of break... me and nigel were like, TIRED... SIANZ... and we see bryan lim and eugene walking away from the canteen... MY GOODNESS... they were heading to the library to "STUDY"... OMY! i was like, u gotta be kidding... the girls were sitting down eating, mark eventually came as well... see if i can remember the girls names (spelling wrong nvm :P): sharmaine, michelle, shu wei(older than me by a day T_T), denise, janica, qiu shui, esther, thanh... should be correct liaoz... guys: kp, pk, ws, eugene and bryan lim... ENTHU LA! >.< i haven even done my hmwk yet... :P Jing Jiat and Mark!! YAY!! jj reminds is like him too... but more physically.... HAHAZ... forever so sianz... mark is more like the other him... HAHAZ!!!!! always looks serious sia...

that's overview la... i juz wanted to write this down for memory's sake... i think i either got amnesia or senile le... HAIZZZZZZZZ

12th January

2006-01-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

School lessons are getting boring... OMY! i fell asleep during physics and nigel was like, sitting there paying attention... My class is like, so hardworking lo... I can't remember all their names! >.<

Animal welfare people are like, so nice lo... may be my first time... made a slight fool of myself :P but the girls there so friendly to me... I can't remember all their names! >.<

There are so many cat high guys in vjc! out of all of them, i only know like, 1/2 and i'm closer to like, 3 of them only... Yet... ALL OF THEM KNOW ME! OMY! haizzz.... i so famous mehz? I can't remember all their names! >.<

OG... I REMEMBER ALL THEIR NAMES! such a deep impression... how can i forget ahz?? HAHAZ!

11th January

2006-01-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

I'm too lazy to blogg.... refer to kenny's blog for scatches of the surface... lolx!

Killian: What?

2006-01-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

The days of slacking are so enjoyable...

I totally haven't done anything except that i was going gym pretty much every day. If i really must say what have i done in my time while everyone is at their orientations...

.I got all 5-Stars ranking for the Mercenaries Mode in Resident Evil 4, unlocking the almighty Handcannon.

.I beat the Professional mode in Resident Evil 4, the hardest mode.

.I got all S-Rank for the missions in Fatal Frame 3: The tormented, unlocking the most powerful function the camera can have.

.Now, i'm trying to beat Nightmare mode of fatal frame 3, the hardest mode.

As you can see, i have no life. No, i don't have a problem. Fullmetal Alchemist is nice. Even the jap name of the anime sounds so cool. Hagane no Renkinjutsushi.

..... I have nothing more to say....

10th January

2006-01-10T11:09:00.000+08:00

I was like, so lazy to blog the past few days... i reached home super late and i fell asleep within the hour... SO MUCH THINGS TO SAY... i dun even know how to start... see la... this like hmwk... dun continue one sure pile up... sianz... then bad memory... can't remember what happen also...

3rd January

2006-01-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

ORIENTATION in VJC!!!! the ogls really put in minimal effort to give us maximum fun! so it's win win i guess... okies... Chronologically...

Melissa's mother was so kind to gimme a lift to school... she dropped xavier off at outside the road leading to maris stella and dropped me off... she took 15 mins literally to get there... along the PIE! so fast!!!

melissa and i dropped off and immediately she starts saying hi to her friends... such a friendly bunch!!! i noticed something... all the jc yr2 GIRLS... they get groomed to look pretty... i mean... i see the girls go into jc yr1 coming out in jc yr2 looking very different... more pretty... but still that act cute attitude... very funny and cute!! lolx...

melissa left, i sign up... take t-shirt... then i went to look around... i love it... the school is relatively big! i explored but 30% of the school... lots more to see...

meet ogls... Min Yong... Esther... Jomaine... Wenny... dunno if spell correctly or not... then... mrs chan our principal gave a short talk... followed by some ang mo teacher... both were so WARM! they ended in less than h... giving us the rest of the day to play play play...

go eat lunch... we had like, mystery package... almost everyone different... i opened mine... NO VEGGIES! potato, chicken cutlet, tofu, rice... NO VEGGIES! well, i dun like veggies but i always eat mine... lolx... but this was too coincidental...

Kinda awkward... many awkward parts where silences take place... the ip1s and the ogls try to get us to talk... GIRLS..... they can like... 1 sec nvr see each other in their life before then the next sec... POOF!... they are sistas... LOLX! all so funny... lolx... the ice breakers were fun... wacko, bandana thievery and i want to toot the teddy bear... lolx... details i say another time...

i met a few people... soefie, j-wei (KEWL NAME!), eegiee (spelling may be wrong... T_T... prnounced literally...), ruth, ruth, felicia, yi han(also billy's friend-china guy), robin, jonathan, kenny, audrey... INFERNO IFRIT! WOOOOO!

the orientation system is soooooooooo kewl... 8 different superhero leagues... V I C T O R I A... Valhalla, Icies, Chronos, Thor, Osmoze, Razzle, INFERNO, Animagus... each league further divided down to 8 teams... so fun! the group still very big... Alliances were formed... Osmoze and Icies, Vahalla and Chronos, Razzl and Thor and Animagus and INFERNO! okies... so our team is kinda at the bottom... lolx...

Mass cheer for INFERNO super fun... esp like the protest signal one... the others also okies... the cheers for all the leagues... some were funny! some were funny and lame... some were creative... all very active though... then there are ally cheers... hahaz... getting more fun by the minute...

Mass dance is like... CUTURE and TRADITION in victoria... half the dance actually looks like para!!! lolx... they look so fun to do!!! though the tunes are more pop and rock than eurobeat... haiz...

next was the fashion show... naturally i shy shy so jonathan volunteer... he dressed up as a repulsive red bunny... eegie wanted him to totally act gu niang... gave him boobs... OMY! seriously, he looked hilarious... everyone all rofl... which reminds me... the ip1 students don't look that young... look like jc yr 1 students... except maybe for jonathan and ruth... anyway... we played animal farm and then the runway show where AXX and jeffrey were in costumes too... lolx... should have snapped a photo of them... then go home...

the ride took me i think 40 mins... i fell asleep so it's uncertain... FUN! FUN! FUN! VJC is so nice!!!

1st January

2006-01-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

OMY!! it's a new year again... every year has it's resolutions... and my resolutions for this year?? LOVE MORE? that's a good one i guess... depends who... gimme a name and i most probably would say yes...

i'm not a secondary student anymore *GASPS* no kidding!!! i'm 16! secondary school seems to fly by when ur having fun and i don't feel like letting go... though at times it feels horribly wrong and awkward... i'm too OLD!! 16 is like.... too old... especially for a boy... cause... in 2 years time... i would be in the army! speaking of which...

steven and hwei shan (also frm vjc!)... they actually know so much about how to pon army ahz.... thought they found it okies... :P the fact that they took so much trouble to even FIND OUT how to skip army shows howe horrible it is lo... anywayz...

what have i done in the holidays since the 20th ahz? i have leveled my water tao... she's level 100 now!!! YAY!!! i surpassed the highest character in lion server owned by classmates... hmm... highest was alford ba... lvl 98... i'm 100!!! muahahaha... eric lvl 117... >.< he and rong sheng lvl them like xiao... gonna be able to plvl water taos and create water factory le... lolx... what else... 28th dec was the class gathering... nothing much to say only... "GONNA MISS U GUYS!!!!!" (T_T)... night watch service in church yesterday... that's all ba...

today was the new year celebration at pasir panjang... as my family was approaching, shannon and his gf were driving out... OMY! i want another nephew and niece... seeing couples make me juz soooooooooooooooooo happy.... wish for the best for them :)))) daijun, lijun, xiangjun, yu-jun and sa-pe and aunty susan were probably still in new zealand... check dai's blog later... anywayz... my nephew and niece were so adorable... charlene and gerald (cousin's chilren) they had earlier recently flown in from new zealand and had with them a short video film abt their trip... zhe-pe's adopted children were there too... aiya... can't remember their names... mailee, carmee, nara, rena and nelson!! i remember... aunty jean doesn't have to take care of them cause their actual mothers will... kinda odd... well, the trip scenery in new zealand was so remarkable... i wanna go and see the farms and animals!!!!! >.< this june... i hope...

i'll be in VJC the day after... so fast... i'm in jc already... SIANZ... melissa's mother is going to give me a ride... i hope everything goes well there... Thank God for putting me there... Thank God for a smoother secondary school before the jc :P ... Amen.....

KILLIAN:???

2005-12-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! ALL YOU LUCKY @#$%&*! OUT THERE! Sorry, felt like saying that, my relatives are cheapskates, and i seriously mean it. I don look forward to Christmas, not one bit, cos the only crap i am going to get and have been getting are shampoos, towels, soap and... (repeat cycle)

The only precious presents came from.... of course, my parents, anime and ps2 games. It really sucks when your relatives are a bunch of gossipy aunties sitting at the table during Christmas gatherings and CNY gatherings just to gossip about things. And you are to tag along and be stuck to your auntie's TV with your dumbass 8 year old cousin watching POWER RANGERS.

Bryan, you better appreciate the presents you get for your Birthday and stuff, and be freakin happy, or i will crack your neck. My birthday falls on a cursed day, March 2nd, so either i would be having CA1 during that time in primary school or get smacked right in the middle of the common test week in secondary school, not sure about poly, but i'm sure JC is gonna be similar to Secondary schools.

Dam, i'm feeling CRAP, i shall post this, its a nice wallpaper, in my own point of view, that is.... Click on picture to get the full thing, the thumbnail is a little screwed up.

16th-20th December

2005-12-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

OMY!!!!! I haven done the 5 werid things abt me, phuket trip and 2703 chalet(THE BEST IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT :P)... muz update now... this is going to be one LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG entry...------------ that was written on the 16th of this month... it's the 20th now... lolx... i have taken 4 days to write this?? MY GOODNESS.... i'll fill in the in betweens too...

first the game... i'll get u marx for it... lolx... alford ahz... the rules says 6 people... so like summary marking scheme... u exceed the number of people, delete accordingly... lolx...

"Rules of the game. Post 5 weird things or random facts about yourself. Then at the end of the list, 5 names that are in line to do this. Dont forget to leave a comment 'You've been tagged'in their blogs to read yours."

1)I need my bolster to sleep... soon it's going to be a soft surface and a pillow as well >.<... i suddenly feel so privilledged...

2)I cannot take my alcohol, rongsheng says either i take more and more or i end up sleeping earlier... i can remember both class chalets my face turning red and my ears feeling so hot, puke also cannot puke... at least no hangover la...

3)I love soft toys... Have a whole collection of them... Let me see... zhiheng gave me a snake, wilson, kr and zhiheng bought me a doremon paw pillow and javier, alford, dexter, eric, richard and ivan bought me a giant hamtaro... the same one adriel lam has... OMY!!... must take picture of them all one day...

4)I'm one BIG para fan... the only people capable of this title is aaron, eric and rong sheng.... jonathan lau is like, "who is miho?" Learning PPA3, PPA4, PPA5, PPA6, PPA7... maybe i'll revive para again... make the newest allstars... :P

5)I can't stand scary and errie stories... like presence of haunted houses or spirits... Christians believe there are demons and the devil exists... but i get woozy thinking about it... like, about to cry that kind of feeling... very freaky...

Sabo time ^_^ i chose:

1)Shaun Ho

2)Aaron Gian

3)Dai Jun

4)Pei Rong

5)Katrina Chew

Now my phuket trip... My family was like, super sianz when we had to take silk air flight there... at least the kris flyer lounge was open for us to enter... the food there was nice.. everything associated with vege... vege cream soup, vege lagsagne... but they tasted nice.... flying to phuket, i listened to my para songs in the mp3... according to my brother, i fell asleep when there was turbulence... my goodness... the food was also relatively nice cause at least i had a choice... What's there to say? First day we reached... practically did nothing but watch tv... On the second day, we went to phi phi island... couldn't find the shooting range in thailand... the speed boat that took us had 3 engines... imagine the speed of the boat... at least 30 knots!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 slight ove and you would fall overboard... extremely frightening at times... my brother could sleep... dunno how... mainly it was feeding the fishes and looking at them while snorkelling... at one point, i scratched my whole body trying to feed fishes... back at the hotel, i counted 11 cuts... 2 very deep ones.... >.< now building a phobia for beaches... On the third day... elephant riding and SHOPPING!!!! my elephant... LOLX! it took 1 min to shit and 2 mintues to finish farting... it actually made a pattern tune... super super loud... so hilarious... The last day, MY BIRTHDAY!!! we were going back to singapore... the airport... firstly, our flight was supposed to leave at 7.20pm... at the hotel earlier, we received a call saying our flight was delayed... now it was to leave at 7.40pm... at the check in counter, a sign board was put up to inform us of a late arrival of the plane and thus a late departure... now it was to leave at 8.00pm... the lounge in thailand was not that great... in fact, the only thing i wouldn't mind was the coke and sprite in the chiller... the announcement buzzed... and frankly, the thais speak english with a sharp accent... not tt it's hard to figure it out... it's just very slow... "the........ flight........ MI745........ is delayed................."... so now... it was to leave at 8.30pm... what the world.... 7.20pm... now 8.30pm... what's worse... we were forced to eat otah in the plane... they ran out of chicken with pasta!!! T_T another weird random fact about me is i can't take spicy food... at least not too spicy... so i was stuck with soggy rice and otah.... T_T reaching singapore... my mother and sister separated half way to take another taxi... daddy, zech and i went home first in a taxi... i had no idea that my mother had gone to buy my birthday cake... at home, i remembered switching on my phone... i forgot who already... i remember julius, alford and richard wishing me a happy birthday... aaron was in ptiah and julius was leaving the next day... i liked the trip overall... at least it was away from routine sg...

2703 chalet!!! THE BEST IS JUST AN UNDERSTATEMENT... kr and wilson and zhi heng suprised me with a doremon paw pillow.... SO CUTE.... but like all chalets... my bolster and pillow will get KOPED all the time...

first day... i reached the chalet and everyone pulled me to go play at the arcade... at least 20 people staring at me swing and pwn the machine... jonathan ahz?? lolx... he dances very...... err....... graceful is also not the word to use... errr... u get the idea.... at least he couldn't beat me... MUAHAHAHAHAHA... bike rental... we went all the way to changi village to rent bike... why??? they only cost $20/$25... at pasir ris park, the stupid shop made us pay $49!!!! my goodnesss!!!!!!!!!!! anyway... we rented a bike at changi village and cycled back to the chalet... a bit bo hua la... bause i rode the bike twice only... there and back... back at the chalet, we watched deuce bigalow... blardy farnie show... i think it was nc 16... so weird... the woman was born with a male appendix on the face instead of a nose... then whenever she sneezed... OMY!!!! i went to sleep tht night quite peacefully.... NOTHING happened :P

second day.... woke up and decided to play moning pt... jonathan couldn't beat me... AGAIN... hmm... i think the class went to bowl... i only wanted to watch... bowling for 4 years makes me SIANZ about bowling already... so me, kangrui, wilson, zhi heng and wesley went to look for a lan shop... the lan shop pricing was $4 an hour... MY GOODNESS... other places half the price lo... so stupid... the arcde machine with my game was spoilt... how could i fail crazy for you!!!!!!!!! so i conclude... it's spoilt :P LOLX! after that, i think we went to play pool where i thrashed my opponents all 5 games... $8 an hour was the normal price i think... so i didn't mind... me kangrui and wilson ate dinner at kfc and we went back to chalet to sleep... NOTHING happened :P

third day... barbeque night... i think i didn't sleep enough... woke up and had morning pt... lunch was about to be cooked: magee noodle but jonathan turned it off... i had put the seasoning and luncheon meat in the soup which as approximately 70 degrees celcius... i was afraid the meat would stick to the side of the pot... me and rongsheng were late for the shuttle at aloha... we ran ALL the way to costa sands... my goodness... everyone on the bus were like, "phew... they made it..." so the whole lot of us went to play lan at raiders (i was expecting to see richard to give him a surprise but they weren't there T_T)... so fun!!! first 2 rounds cause it was noobs we were versusing that of course my team won... 3rd game... me, zhiheng, wilson, kang rui against pierluca, jonathan, wesley, alvin... 1 half pro and 3 noobs against supposedly 4 pros... INBA!!! T_T but... would u believe it, the neru ass, shaman, rylai and zeus beat techies, lina, sniper and vengeful.... our kills of course lesser than them.. but so naturally... my team won... LOLX... poor jonathan... got into a bf... we ended freaking late!!!!!! we had practically nothing for the barbeque... we rushed to the ntuc at ang mo kio... used my capital to purchase the items we needed and me, wesley, pierluca and jonathan went back to he chalet in a taxi... in between we lost the wire mesh and had wilson tan go buy us another one... we were under lots of pressure... we had to prepare everything before TAN SOOK YEE and SERENE SEAH appeared... tan brought fruits... serene brought snacks like potato chips... weiren brought whisky... MY GOODNESS... the barbeque went fine... smoothly... my face turned hot... and shaun said i couldn't walk straight... and i pee-ed 5 times... then my forehead stopped feeling hot... serene said there's a thin line between drunk and high... i dunno which i was... night time we went to the play ground... didn't seem to far though it was 5km away... xavier kept talking about scary stories though he said they weren't real... totally freaked me out... feel that kind of crying feeling... woozy... anywayz... zhixiang remembered the closer nighbours that passed away and started tearing... haiz... so sad... the meaning of life was still not told to them... and they left...

forth day... returned the bike... cycled all the way to changi village via certain detours... i felt like sleeping all the way... this trip was TOUGHER than the first one i had... it did have more downhills... but we went a longer distance... which means... MORE UPHILLS... MORE DOWNHILLS... T_T i managed to get to the kopitiam where i fell asleep on the filthy table... lolx... took a bus back where i fell asleep right on the bed with wilson... so sleepy... i woke to jonathan's voice wanting us to go eat lunch and play lan... so more lan at tampines's raider's... 3 rounds with the "PROS"... first round -ar... i was omni knight... EWWWWW.... dunno how to use so immediately.... -repick.... then i got orge magi... 6.27's ogre magi was much nicer!! i liked it actually... just as i was getting heart we won... >.< second roung -ap... i took nerubian.... lolx... i was PWNING... highest number of kills... so happy... WHY??? actually, half were ks... 1 quarter was assasinate... so they were not aware... the last quarter was thanks to johnny... who has no idea how assasins work... LOLX... some pro... third roung -ap... i took nerubian after everyone had chosen... so i don't know why qichao got so mad... 4 heros were taken again... he didn't seem to like me taking nerubian... i only took it fo 2 games... what's wrong?? nobody picked it also... so... not his fault really... anyway... we went back and had a 2nd barbecue where deuce bigalow was watched again and i slept peacefully... NOTHING happened :P

final day... my mummy came and took me home where i checked my jc posting... VJC!!! then i slept again... nothing happened... really... LOLX... i didn't wake till dinner time i guess... what a long trip... (I SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT BIT LONG AGO... NOW's THE IN BETWEENS... BET UR BORED BY NOW :P)

i went for li kai's church thingy... MARTHA Chin was sandra!!! OMY!! she grew taller... i could regonise most the people there... sister joann, tze gang... they whole gang were the cast... and i actually enjoyed the musical... very touching... besides... with jeremy tiong and dexter there... HAHAZ!!! i'm invulnerable... lolx... the whole musical was about the meaning of LIFE... alot of people actually don't like talking about it... i realise one thing... people always think that eventually, if there's something wrong that happens at the end, they have excuses to get out of it and usually it's valid... not really the case anymore... for they will decide that the meaning of LIFE is what they want it to be... Not God's way... disheartening? perhaps... anyway... julius, cyg, xavier yeam and ivan tan are in thailand now with darrel... one day after their performance... nice...

let's see... today's the 20th already!! haven finished with this post... >.< my family went to funan the digita-l-ife mall... daddy bought me AOE 3!!!! OMY!!! looks soooooooooo nice.... then he also bought an external hard ware... 250gig.... so happy.... could upload all my things to the hard drive now.... so my brother can't so anything to them... ong yuan came over to burn cds... his cds were literally TORN!! the film not only came out, the cracks fused with the plastic... ewwwy... so i successfully bruned 5 cds for him and returned yu xuan's one in the process... he left around 9 pm... so stayed aorud 8h ba... project runway was like... so... OMY!... Kara Saun will win... no doubt... austin will be 2nd and jay third.... wendy will LOSE next round... today's was the post office challenge... robert should not have gotten out... he's as quite smart to be done... the zip on the pants... convertables... ahhh... whatever.... now it's midnight already.... so late >.< GOODNIGHT.... long since i posted... lolx...

6th December

2005-12-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

i'm too jealous and envious to function... i'm not arrogant, not ignorant, just... ~JEALOUSY~ (Parapara song)so what do i do? drown myself in computer... that's bad... God won't be happy...

Early birthday pressie from my parents and grandparents... my grandma gave me ang pow... $102!!! dunno why this number but WHO CARES?? :)))))) my mother... $100 shooping voucher... a 100 dollar note!!! a bit less than last time but WHO CARES??? :)))))) rather get money than books? :P my daddy bought me a 1 gig mp3... a bit small but WHO CARES??? :)))))) better than last time's 128mb... I love these blessings... >_<

Fishing yesterday with kq and ben... i met kq and went to lower piercce... ben came later... setup and all the details i had no idea what to do... there are 3 "fishing" ways... Fishing rod, reel, fishing net... i caught 3 fishies using the reel, 1 using the net (it just swam in) and none with the rod... early in the morning was like, tons of fishes i actually managed to catch something :P then nearer noon, nothing at all... at least the weather was fine... kq had a bad sun burn on his back from earlier fishing trips... both of them were like, take bait (prawns), walk towards reservoir and come back in 5 mins with a fish lo!! so impressive... we saw a snake had fish about the breadth of our e maths txtbk and a big lobster about the length of 2 cd cases!!! OMY! not a single huge fish was caught... SIANZ... big fish rox...

ben's father speaks HOKKIEN! i thought ben was canton family! he was so nice, kept wanting to treat kq and i to lunch... we went to thompson and i got myself LOVELY laksa... then went home... i enjoyed myself! fishing is sooooooooo fun with friends... i'd nvr noe....

i cannot find the wire connecting the compuer and camera... ALL my beautiful pictures... nvm... for ME to stare at and enjoy :P still looking for wire... >.<

JEREMIAH: First prize stinks.

2005-12-03T12:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah, like bryan said, i got the first prize, 2 tickets to taipei, the dumbest thing was that they rejected my forfeit, i told the mc that i forfeit this tixs and give others a chance to win it, and they said NO. What the hell? I hate going overseas, thats why.

then later the miss Singapore finalist that they invited to our grad night joked with me and asked me if i can give her the tixs and i agreed immediately and gave it to her, then she was like.. stunned, shocked that why i wanted to reject the tixs so much, then she recommend me to let my parents go or something.. ha ha, her face was like screwed up, trying to find a reason get me to accept the tixs.

Whatever it is, the grad night end off as me being the first prize winner, so i'm fine with that, i didn't even expect to get any prizes and i was just commenting on how lucky jonathan was, winning a wallet in the beginning.. oh, the irony...

Anyway, the next day i went for my ....4th aunt's daughter wedding. Hilton hotel. while you guys were having barbecue at the chalet. and my paternal side cousins were there too, gosh, they are cool, i feel like crap. one of them is 17, a poly business student and his hair and attire looked great, the other is 21, a policeman in training, and yeah, he looked cool too, but whats my point of saying these? Cos, later, we sat together, and fortunately, our table was served by this really unbelievably sweet looking waitress, all three of us, hot-blodded young males of age 16, 17 and 21 was staring at her like as if she was a goddess or something. But we gave up hope cos we discussed that she might be older than any of us, simply cos her handling with the dishes and stuff was really professional. Well, since all three of us were taller than her significantly, we wished that she could be younger, but then later one of the three old geezers who drank themselves drunk asked her how old she was, and OH BLESS GOD, SHE SAID SHE WAS SECONDARY 3!!! our eyes brightened, our hearts pumped and only one thing flowed in our brains: "I want her number" but soon, i sanked cos i sorta knew i had no chance if my cousins were with me. Throughout the night of the dinner, the three old geezers got more and more drunk, and kept disturding that waitress, she could only smiled uneasyly. I was prepared though, if those drunken asses layed a finger on her, the dirty wrist of theirs are going to get twisted out of its position. And my cousins were with me too, we pledged ourselves to protect her for this night during our discussion in the toilet while we were like adjusting our hair in front of the mirrors.. ha ha, the aggressive hormones work wonders.

My eldest cousin (the policeman) was brave enough to ask another waitress for the name of this intensely sweet colleague of hers, she was shocked when all three of us surrounded her and like ask her suddenly..: "er.. what's her name" *fingers pointing* apparently, her name is serena, and we were like repeating that name on our lips...

And.... 11.30pm came by, and soon, more and more people went home, at first we told our parents we wanted to walk around after the dinner so they can proceed home first but somehow my father understood me too well, he knew we were planning to ask the waitress for her number, smart! so he agreed to wait for us outside the hotel. Seemingly, the waiters and the waitresses have a debriefing after the dinner too, so we waited outside, adjusting our hair and clothes in the nearby mirror again.

And here's the worst part, she came out changed with a guy and somehow they were quite intimate (walking quite closely) and chatting quite happily, we didn't wanna assume anything else except that it was her boyfriend, who was a waiter too. Afterall, with her calibre, its totally impossible that she does not have any boyfriends. But my businessman cousin was super-optimistic, he said, it could be that because we asked her colleague of her name and the colleague warned her beforehand, telling her of three explicably handsome males (ER HEM) waiting for her outside, thus she convinced a guy friend of hers to shield her and form a decoy. Whatever it is, we give up and our faces were like crap, we felt like crap, everything was crap. My father patted me on my back and said chances were aplenty, and my cousins were determined as well, saying that that if it is fate, we might meet her again... Oh well... Its another event that is worth noting in my life, my first step into manhood and got kicked in the groin and collaspe onto the floor, i need some time to recover though.... ouch...

Cheerio, buddies, happy holidays.

2nd December

2005-12-02T17:34:00.000+08:00

Lots to say really.... OMY!!!! Where to start????

Firstly: GRAD NIGHT... to prepare for it, natlaie did my hair... was like... "NICE!" and she was like... "ROFL.... SIANZ"... i have the pic somewhere... me and raymond and johnny went to chalet first from my house... i thrashed them with pokemon deck here so much so that we didn't play at chalet... tho my brother did help a bit =P ... at chalet i couldn't decide what to wear... in the end, wore the straight cut pants and long sleeved t shirt... my formation came off early... bleah... i have alot of photos >.< only can't upload them coz i lost the wire to connect to the computer... skip all the eeedie beedie details... food was like... err... okies la... not nice but not yucky... the word is... EDIBLE... anywayz... xavier and ivan left early (wb and lk)... xavier passed me his ticket lest he won something... OMY! he did!!! 6th prize somemore... Johnny won a prize too but he was like, nothing much... JEREMIAH!!! MY GOODNESS! he won the first prize!!! was 2 tickets to Taipei... dunno why he not happy... 1ST PRIZE!!! MY GOODNESS!!! he can send his parents off and then take the house... OMY!!!!!!! after that i went back to chalet... i cannot forget that night... won't say why la... but i kinda liked the trip back...

Next: CHALET!! okies... start off from the night i reached there... majong and bridge till around 5.30am... i tried to sleep but i couldn't... i was conscious for more than 24h!!!! way more than that... actually, was more submissive than causious lehz... as in like, not worry what will happen to me... that morning was special yet sinful in a sense... >.< went to eat a hash brown cause i wan't that hungry... pool and more bridge and more ps2... then aaron and everyone started appearing... i thrashed boon teck in a B and P match! lolx... totally owned him... he was sooooooo persistant at one point... take the ROCK while brandon took Stone COLD... brandon kept trying to tire tbt in the last man standing match... so funny!!!! 9 out if 10 times, tbt would just stand up again... LOLX! brandon let him off once... lolx... big mistake... hmm...

Then: BBQ night... night time barbeque... quite clear what hapened... i drank alot alot of the orange drink... hmm... eric spiked it that i knew... i kept drinking... that's the only thing i dunno why... i thought i liked it alot... so much so i drank again... not sure... i was clear headed i guess... i can remember brandon winning tbt in ps2, i was tested "everybody dance" by aaron, ong yuan and jeremy tiong were playing chess and joey tried to cook the chiocken wings which weihao said "can be eaten one!!!!"... something liddat... i remember sleeping VERY VERY PEACEFULLY and long that night... heehee... YAY! i can take my alcohol... hmm... initially i puked a bit out... but i hadn't eaten much so nothing came out... just that queasy feeling... but i took more and more so i guess i was alright... hmm... God forgive... HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lastly, yesterday and departure day.... I remember the look on his face as i left... so... argh... can't explain... looks delicious =P jkjk... i missed everyone that stepped out of the chalet... i mean... it felt like, the last time i was going to see everyone... AWWWW MAN!!! someone once said, i must learn to let go... he's correct... though now i think it's knowing how to accept the fact people will leave someday one way or another... i want to keep them... put them in my pocket, take them out when i'm showering or sleeping but i can't... how i wish i could at least be their permanent guardians... HAIZZZZ... went to eric's house... enjoyed myself since he was SUCH A GRACIOUS host... totally nice... chicken rice for lunch and home sweet home... i fell asleep at 7.30 plus so i have no idea what happened after that...

What few days these have been!!!! dun wanna forget secondary classes... next camp coming up!!! 2703!! can't wait..................................................

27th November

2005-11-27T16:57:00.000+08:00

The decision has been made... thanks to daddy dear and mummy dear... lolx... okies la... very satisfied with my jc schools choice:

Julius.... i wanna see you there >.< or i'll be lonely and long to be in ajc, cjc and sajc.... lolx

JEREMIAH: Life replenished

2005-11-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

Yes, yes, i have recovered, i don't believe it, i recovered in one night. I took the temperature at 7.00 pm and then took again at 1.00 am (i woke up). the temperature was 37.7 at first, then drop to 35.9! my will to play is empowering.... hmmm..

But here's the thing, how many of you leaving in ang mo kio hdb buildings have got bat flying into your house, eh? i got one last night. a outstretched bat of about roughly 20 cm fluttered into my house, its no fruit bat, mind you, it flew past the table of fruits, and circled the hall.... then wait into another room, circled there and then flew out and out of the window where it came from. and it bumped onto nothing, even though my house was pretty darn packed. Its like its familiar with the route and all. So... whats your deal? A big bat in your house in the middle of the night, lucky? or unlucky? My father was like... whoooaaa....

Deadline is up, and i did not apply for any JC. figure that i am not the stuff for studying, i'm just gonna enjoy my 3 months off while you all just go get into some relationship shit, ya?

my appearance on this blog is coming to an end, probably, making my blog next week, that is if bryan were to reply me NOW.

26th November

2005-11-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

helped with ps's blog just 5 mins ago... well, very easy la... mostly everything he do one.... i like it lo..... so what if he was going to retain it temporary??? lolx... at least he HAS one now... that i can view...

Making my decision of jc today!!! i have chosen this in the folloing order:

1)VJC SCIENCE

2)NYJC SCIENCE

3)SAJC SCIENCE

4)AJC SCIENCE

5)ACJC SCIENCE

6)CJC SCIENCE

7)VJC ARTS

8)NYJC ARTS

9)SAJC ARTS

10)AJC ARTS

11)ACJC ARTS

12)CJC ARTS

everything in that order... i have yet to submit and it's vulnerable to my daddy's or mummy's changes... well, that's tentative..... sleepny now... going to sleep... zzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

J: Arrrgh.....

2005-11-24T20:10:00.000+08:00

Bryan, don't include my name, i have my reasons, please.

I finally blogged... since the day o levels finish, i shot straight home and played, record time: till 5 in the morning, then slept for 5 hours and went on again. I must compliment my tv though.... Of course, it's been almost half a year since i touched my ps2, my skills are all gone, stamina along with it, i kinda feel like i start to suck in some games...

Then, i was slapped into reality, sore throat first, flu, then now a slight fever, my strength gradually dips, i feel like crap. Can barely hold out for three hours in front of the ps2, taking a break now... dammit! i still wanna build my demon empire..

Congrats for bryan's sis in the psle results. 250 huh? i only got a 241... *whimper*

Actually i thought finishing your o levels would be a big deal, but seriously, its sorta normal... instead it felt even worse, i dare say. It feels like i lost my direction, there's nothing to work for, nothing to fight for.. it didn't really feel that good after the paper, but it did felt like freedom was hugging me. But my mentality still stays.. as in, when i play my games last time when we were still studying, i would feel a bit uncomfortable, call it guilt.. then now, whenever i play for long hours, guilt starts to appear, then later my mind would tell me: "O levels over already wad" then my conscience will reply: "ya hor".... it feels weird, like releasing a prisoner from the prison after 10 years (I'm a cat high student for 10 years) What can i say?

Not to forget, i made some great friends in my sec 3 and 4 years. sec 1 and 2 were crap. the class has fools that fight over girls, write their numbers on the board and stuff. I shan't mention who but i WILL give you a puzzle for his name. nivlem hok. solve it, he talks to girls on phone in the toilet during lessons too, hey hey, i ain't jealous, its just that he insulted my parents behind my back before, said that i was a dumbass for putting my parents photo in my wallet, almost had the temptation to pluck his intestines out and use it to strangle him!! KILL!!! KILL!!!. putting that aside (er hem). Here are some of the good friends i made during this 2 years. I said good, if you are not inside, it doesn't matter, i feel too feverish to think for too long.

Friends(in no order of goodness)
Jonathan Tan, for being with me during the o levels.
Shi Xiong, for being my good sit-beside-me partner.
Bryan AKA easybusy, for being the most generous guy to me.
Sean Ong Yuan, for sharing my passion in games and martial arts.
Nicholas, for being calm and cool no matter the situation.
Wei Hao, for being a nice guy to chat to.
Eric, for being horny.
Javier, for being a crazy guy who thinks he can beat me in arm wrestling.
Mellavin, for being so good to buy the games for me.
Li Kai, for being that super-gentle guy.
Brandon, for letting me bite his tasty flesh.... EhEHeHE.....

and an honourable mention for a non-chs person, Tiffany,
For being with me during the o levels as well, helped me bunch by teaching me about 10 english vocabs before the exam, in which i used 4, and emailing the 2004 A maths paper step by step solutions. Thank you, you were my pillar of support next to jonathan, without both of you, i could have died on the battlefield.

Ironically, the list does not include all my sec 1 and 2 friends who were in the same class as well in this two years, instead they became someone else who i never imagined, crappy, fair-weathered friends are what you called them, RIGHT? the fool who got kicked out of church? Its been a good year for me, i didn't dread my classmates except for a apecial few.. I shan't take up your playing time, so i'm going to end off here to go rest, my body is heating up again... *goes up in flames and save a few ounce of strength to click "Publish Post"" *SCREAMS* AhHHHHhhhhhhhHHhhh!!!!!

24th November

2005-11-24T18:16:00.000+08:00

PSLE results today came out!! HECK LA... my sister went to school to get her results... OMY!!!! looks like she nearly beat me... in retrospect, i found 251+1 (passed HCL) very very nice at that time... no exception this year lo!! my sister got 250+0(no HCL at all :P) SO OMY!!!! did better than she expected, WAY better than my brother expected but a bit worse than i expected... of course i have high expectations of my sister la... here's s small "extract from her psle... no official stamp or anything so confirmed legal to post on blog:

just sooooooo proud of her... (=*_*=)

today went shopping with joshh for a mere 1.5h! =X liddat how to shop? he bought the first bag he saw... it pays to be the shop nearer the street... lolx... nvr see the price of the other shop... maybe he does this to save time? Orange socks and a hariband left.... Next time go ithe liangyu and natalie... then can stay longer... more fun ^^

After that i went to aaron's house to pass him the moe forms... he kinda reluctant to go dentist... lolx... well, at first i duuno what to do... then in the end i decided to leave also lo... his father might not like an outsider in his house and if i left no reason for aaron to stay also... then dun get him in trouble... so i said byebye to uncle and left... stayed around an h only... i want to his his virtual maple cat!!!!!!!! >.<

i'm just feeling so high... God's blessing my life again and again =)))))))

23 November

2005-11-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

Today collected moe form to apply jc... the polys that have sent me things... SP sent me 2 "brochures" and a magazine i think... TP got a whole bunch also, like white booklets... NP... i think it was postcards... SIANZ... do they really think i will go to poly?? anywayz... highly possible i'll be going to VJC... hmm... who was SOOOOOOOOO persuasive ah???? actually managed to sway me to go vjc lo.... julius u very zhai!! lolx...

after collecting the form, me, alford, aaron, eric, peesheng, his kuzzin, richard, joosiong, raymond and johnny went to play lan at raiders where an EXTREMELY sluttish thing happened... anyway... before the crisis, i wanted to show appreciation to everyone there :P... those were mere **HUGS** only lo... i'm not a disease... T_T playing playing in the highly radiated place, i managed to at least break even my kills and deaths... still very NOOBIE... johnny always took clinkz... OMYGOODNESS... he was so noobie in one game and became so pro in the next!!! i was so freaked out... next time i take clinks too... MUAHAHAHHAHAA!! will still kena owned by richard, joosiong and alford though, just like today... though alot of ksing and mistakes did make richard flare up a bit la... scold people so scary T_T played 4 rounds which were super fun... then the biatched up thing happened... richard lost his WHOLE BAG!!! OMY! like, the form A, EVERYTHING inside was GONE!!! we had to make a call to anna and richard reported to the police station... MY GOODNESS LO!!! the stupid thief will see the forms and still nvr return... so heartless lo... not even richard's fault... Pray he gets either his bag with the forms inside or a replacement...

20th November

2005-11-20T14:06:00.000+08:00

It's all over? So fast? Didn't we meet anna yesterday or something like that? My class is new isn't it? Only rongsheng i have met... Eeeps... It's ALL OVER! Byebye catholic high, byebye secondary life!! Heehee... Sticking to me like my cells:
2703 people... you rox man!!! ROX ROX!! people who have stuck up for me... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!! i miss them...

4605 people... dam C-U-T-E people.............. highly recommended for people wanting different flavours in their class :P

bowlers... seniors and junior... wonder how come i dun really like the one year difference people and same age ones... (as in the sec 3, sec 2 and sec 1 when i'm sec 2) but majority of them can fall in love with them de... lolx...

teachers, whole of them... bitches, mothers, haggards, guys... either i'm going to miss them or it's a relief!!!

forget me nots ahz!!! for good thing or the really really "WRONG" things also can XP just don't forget me... probably never forget u guys too... 4 years seem so long yet so short... i remember sitting down at orientation, PHEW... pang was going to be my form teacher before sook yee stepped in... PHEW!!! lolx... one can always look back and remember the fun, laughter, joy, sorrow, hurt, SIANZNESS that i experienced... OMY! so touching... when u receive love after giving it, it feels so AHHHHHh good lo.... That's why i say again... my mother chose the right school for me... good thing i didn't go victoria or acsi... lolx... can't imagine what might happen to me... at least i don't regret going to catholic high... LOVE them all...

Afternoon now... Before exam i had nothing to say, now they are saying playing too much computer is bad cause of radiaiton? MY GOODNESSS!!!!!!! then what is the use of the computer for ahz???

it's terrible... they are saying things that have absoultely nothing similar and are out of point to the situation at hand... it's very wrong lo... i'm too lazy to quarrel back at the slander... it's 100% jumping to conclusions and ignorantly blurting stupid observations that are incorrect...

JEREMIAH: The Path Ahead

2005-11-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

The o levels are halfway down the flasher... just one more flush! one out of two weeks are gone so quickly, and some of us are moaning over our mistakes while others are gloating over the easiness of the paper. whatever it is, i'm neither, cos i'm in the middle..Mu ha ha..

The english was good.. wrote a love story with MARRIAGE, but comprehension got me damaged a little. Both maths were nice too, but they do require lots of clear thinking and working, cos the answer's just not right in front of you. social studies... was not so sweet.. even though i completed it, every question had just a pageful, none was more than a page... And now, i'm preparing for the war with the person i hate the most in the coming art exam. 3 hours straight... not that it will be crazy for me.. but 3 hours staring at that fool is enough to kill me.

Putting that aside, all of you should have played games where stats are important. the attack, defence and stuff. I set up my own stats according to final fantasy's stat system. meaning the max stat is 255. Max hp 9999, max mp 999. Hp(health points) is how much you are holding on for the exam physically. Mp(mental points) are your mentality, your enthusiasm and your mood and readiness for the exam. stat points are how well you can cope with the subject. Bryan can join in during his next post, i hope.

Jeremiah
HP 7200/8000
MP 367/500
ENG 185
MATH 227
AMATH 156
PHY 146
CHEM 60
S.S 121
HIS 89
ART 255

Hmmm... how's that? I got damaged a little during the english and SS exam. And i'm feeling kind of desperate to finish this up and play my ps2.

On the other hand, my auntie told my mother something over the phone and suddenly my mother is crazy about getting me to go JC for first three months.. My auntie's daughter(read:my cousin) is doing o levels now too, and she intends to go CJC for first three months. You guys are in luck.. my cousin is a real looker, she looks really pretty but a bit bimbo, kinda worried about her safety in CJC. But whatever it is, i don't wanna go for first three months! why? its a waste of time, waste of energy and waste of more time. i just wanna stay at home and enjoy all the time i have lost in my secondary years, I already know all those guys that keep saying the first three months in JC are "FUN" are aiming for something else.. come on man, all of us are just 16, 17.. what's the rush? i ain't going to forsake my time that i use to play my ps2 just to see some girls?! Its such a waste of TIME!!! Bla... instead of YOU telling me to get some life, I will tell you something too, LEAVE THEM ALONE! especially my cousin!

I'll write more when i get my own blog, it won't be long now... just 6 MORE DAYS!!!

11th November

2005-11-11T12:58:00.000+08:00

It's me... literally...

what have i done?? i'd like to know... i don't care who u are... it doesn't matter... i'm not angry, just irritated and shocked... what are u talking about URMUM?? i now realise u really meant what u said the other time... eally did... what unholy thing have i done? tell me.

u don't make sense at all... are u trying to squeeze my secret out? it has no effect... that makes u a gossiper only...

ignore the rest... concentrate on me... why????? what wrong have i done you?? they are implying that i am not homo only, not saying that i must have done something to girls and thus is MAN what. it sux when u curse and swear at me.

if u care for my well being, then i'm telling u, i'm not gay... but i will tell u my secret one day if i have to... and nobody implies that being not gay or a Christian means i have to like or have desires for females... nobody says that and i want to know why u said i was gay... fine, my actions are terribly girly... i am still trying... it's worsening my confidence... i always thought everyone in this class has helped me that way... i ahte to know who u are... just tell me what are u saying??? if need be God can help me... but i got to know what's truly wrong? my stupid girly actions is it? i am trying to help it... cause meybe it's giving people the wrong impressions liaoz... if not then what????

if u care about my spiritual well being, then not hating people is Christian like isn't it? so what are you talking about??? what save myself? from what?? are u talking about being friend friend with other people? even extremely hated others? kok ones? why cannot? who says i don't like them yet still try to like them? that's called hypocrite okies... i don't do that...

unless u tell me what i have done i can't do anything as of now...

all i can say is all the best for o levels... and i really hope u stop doing that... it's really mean and demoralising... i don't want to keep thinking abt it and failing my o levels...

5th November JEREMIAH: Do goddesses exist?!

2005-11-05T11:22:00.000+08:00

Welp... here we are, tomorrow's sunday, then a final stage before we break out of the bind of textbooks. Incidentally, i sorta have some something to write about.

As an anime fan, i wanna talk about this new anime that i'm into. It belongs to the category of the "magical girlfriend" anime. Ah! My Goddess! is an extremely entertaining anime. For me, at least. Basically, this anime is targetted at unpopular guys like me, so i'm a total sucker for it.

Morisato Keiichi, a university student who is a total loser and is unpopular with girls because of his 160 cm built. The star of misfortune hovers above his head as he goes on with his daily life, meaning his luck really sucks. Living with his seniors in a totally no-females-are-allowed-to-enter dorm, he is just an everyday guy. but one thing is different about keichii, he is kind to people around him and tries to help them as much as possible, but his luck is so unbalanced, that heaven took pity on him. thus, when he was about to use the phone one day, heaven diverted his line to the Goddess Help Agency, where belldandy, one of the prettiest ranked anime girls in the anime kingdom answered the call and proceeded to teleport out of keichii's house mirror and agreed to grant him one wish, hesitating, thinking that it was a prank set up by his seniors, he wished that belldandy would stay by his side forever, hoping to scare her away, but his wish was accepted, and belldandy willingly agreed stay with him. keichii was kicked out of his dorm after getting found out by his seniors, and resided in a temple where a monk left for journey let them stay there. A contract turned into true affection later as time passes between belldandy and keichii.

It belongs to the "magical girlfriend" category as this type of anime often depicts the male character to be a little noob, but gets to know a girl, who most of the time is not normal, through wacky situations and usually the girl would be a million times better than a normal girl, having every single qualities a wife has.. not surprisingly, its my favourite category.

A picture of belldandy is provided.... man, she is so sweet... I would really need a goddess like that in this time, sitting beside me while i'm studying for the o levels and letting me rest my head on her lap when i'm tired (thats what keichii does)Ahhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~ Happiness.....

What i think, japanese anime are really a big success,it really gets me into it. its decided, my own blog would not be a depressing dim enviroment, my blog would be decorated with the pics of belldandy and the song will be Ah! My Goddess! opening song. Please help me with it, bryan.

31st October

2005-10-31T20:32:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging from liangyu's house... today was the chinese o levels and i am at the moment qing jiao ta... liang qiao ge ge is in his room now probably studying... he got into nus!!! studying engineering lo!!! maybe i'll become like him... hee... anywayz, while she's checking, she showed me this SUPER SUPER CUTE photo of her soft toys... SO ADORABLY CUTE LO!!!

there's a even nicer picture that's also SO ADORABLY CUTE!!!!! VERY KAWAII!!! this was some of the soft toys... if u look at it carefully, it looks like the turtle that's sick and the monkey is caring for it!!! what's so remarkable was that this pic was simply randomly taken!!! so cute! i wanna more now!!!

30th October JEREMIAH: Awwwww CRAP!

2005-10-30T09:43:00.000+08:00

Thinking carefully... the o level aint that long.. only 2 weeks worth, perhaps even lesser than 2 weeks. only 12 days, plus the 7 days in the week before. And there you have it= 19 days. 19 days more and you would sit down in a daze and say: "huh? its over?" Our 10 years of studying for this crappy moment has come. Its time to go out and fly like a full-grown birdie *snigger*

Okay, okay. the practicals were quite a success for me, i dare say. for chem, i got all the answers right on the spot, though i lost 5 marks for not being able to explain how to find concentration of R. For physics... i don know, it went pretty smoothly though i'm not sure if the answers are on the spot, but since i didn't screw up, and managed to check sig figs and answer all questions, i should be fine...

The main point of this entry is : Anyone one of you out there holding a copy of AH! MY GODDESS! MOVIE?! if so, and you know either me or bryan. leave a tag if you can sell it to me!!

Argh... nothing to say really. everyday is so dry, i'm running out of ideas for the entries.... maybe after o levels.. then the ides returns, but by then i won be on this blog anymore... heh heh..

26th October

2005-10-26T11:46:00.000+08:00

i chanced up this!!! :Initial D Sountracks: Initial D is an animated cartoon about street racing. It features modified cars, dangerous racing sequence, and a lot of technical talk about cars. During race sequences, Super Eurobeat music is played. It may seem odd that such music is used during a race, but many real life street racers find eurobeat to be fast paced just like the race. In any case, Initial D soundtracks are made up of SEB songs that have become classic ParaPara dances.

TOTALLY SWEET!!!!! so, almost all their songs are made into para mixes!!!! WOOT! ben even could confirm it the other time he heard the para songs... HAHAHAHAHZ! little link to para!!! i'm gonna watch initial d anime liaoz.... LOLX! anyone have? can lend me? i wanna watch...

my brother got his combination today... MY GOODNESS! he's in triple science!!! PURE AHZ! my brother in hougang secondary with an aggregate of 216 got into TRIPLE SCIENCE!!! YAY!!!! so happy for him lohz... but that means he's better than me... well, he takes 8 subjects just like me... so who cares??? no pure humanities ma... so he's doing ss and elective history, though he's appealing for elective geography...

The funny thing about his report book was that the teacher wrote in the comments: "he's not been paying attention during lessons. He is capable of better results"... my goodness... his conduct was VERY GOOD... i looked at the earlier report cards... the comments were as such by the same teacher earlier that year: "well-behaved and polite student who takes pride in his work"... the conduct was a GOOD.... he improved in results and positions... so was it like, good then???? weird teacher...

25th October

2005-10-25T18:12:00.000+08:00

Super sianz!!! My o level chemistry practical is a total disaster... it's as if i got the total opposite answers from everyone else... aluminum? zinc? HCl? HNO3??? ARGH!!!!

lunch today was at cartel... the seving was way bigger than i had thought it would be... the ribs were simply so lovely!!! OMY!! totally lovely! but it was chosen after lots of consideration... i wonder... hmm... why? why cartel? was it because someone wanted it? was it because it was the only place to go? was it because someone had special access to it? i don't know... but it was delightful in there!!! i enjoyed every piece of meat i had with my best friends... WOOT!

that's it... my father kept it from me... the printer ink costs $40 a catridge! SO CRZY lo! even aft6er all the photocopying he can tell that i use, he still bought the ink... i only recalled him reminding me again and agian countless times that it was ex but i nvr knew printer ink was THAT ex!!! OMY! i must save more now... less photocopying useless magazines now...

22th October JEREMIAH: World peace!

2005-10-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

With the confusion cleared, now i know who is xiaohuiz. hence i requested the lovely bryan, my master in this blog for now, to remove the post i wrote to insult.

With about 2 weeks left or more, i don't wanna know... the o levels is coming to crap us up. it seems unconsciously, we needed our friend's company more and more. Everybody is smsing each other late at night and stuff, which doesn't happen normally, even if it does, its becoming more frequent.

Holiday classes served totally no purpose. Many go out of their house determined to learn something but ended up chit-chattin with friends and then going to J8 for lunch and stuff... aw man, the mood sucks. Its too relaxing, too easy, everyone is like lazing around around. Ha ha, seeing bryan do his chinese paper and only advance one or two pages in like 2 hours? man, i don't know. but i won't deny the fact that he already have wad it takes to get good grades, so...

Message for javier: Nick told me ben had a new design of the class t-shirt up his mind, its something about FIGHTER JETS.. i don't know.. if you wanna go with his idea, tell me beforehand.. cos i'm going to draw up the snake design any moment from now when i get sick of doing tys.

Will it be ok? i wonder... moderation have push up our confidence outrageously.. Almost 100% of the class gets above 20 points.. its so unreal... i would hate the feeling of going into a jc for first 3 months and get kick out after o level results are out. bleahhh....

What i need now.. is the support of my wife.. heh, my wife is not a human, she's a machine, my lovely PS2! yes, but she can't do anything.. she is like a empty shell now... and all her memories with me are locked up... sob.. all the nights we had together... she had forgotten all of them... T_T (If you have no idea what i'm talkin about.. it means that all the memory cards are being locked up.) dammit... she's getting dusty too... gotta clean her soon... oh my lovely, sweet PS2. Just hold on for 1 more month, i will be with you soon.....

remember that this monday (24/10)... at i think 9.30 pm, our sec 3 chinese teacher chow li miao will be on TV, channel U. its something like a talkshow where they discuss about political problems... and on that day, the topic discussed is BLOGS. yes, blogs, my brothers. Let me add that, blog is not a diary that the world cannot see, neither is it for someone who wants the world's attention. It's a communicaton tool, for friends. Like, for us SEC4s. after o level, we may still see each other, but for how long? Everyone has to move on, probably some will have new friends at polytechnics and jcs and slowly the contact between us disappears, very slowly.. of course, not suddenly. After a few years, you realized that you have not contacted this guy for years... So, the world should stop seeing bloggers as buggers who want show off to the world, thus blog hopping are not recommended. its better to just stay in the circle of your friends to prevent misunderstandings.

Still reading? i'm surprised. I'm a little long-winded today.. for some reason.. for the newest news, i heard the chalet change the date to a day after the grad dinner, i'm just going to go for the barbeque though... it's no fun sleeping in sleeping bags with my friends.. i'd rather be at home and spend quality time with my wife...

............still here? move on, brother, i'm done writing..........

........what are you lookin at? Go and move on to other blogs or something, you're done here. I'm done....

19th October

2005-10-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

It's ME! BRYAN TAN SIANG RONG... for your information, i gave jeremiah permission to TRY out on my blog and he seems to be enjoying the use the blog... it's not exploiting but there were some conditions which i did not put to him cause i thought he'd be SENSITIVE enough, whuch for some strange reason, WAS... but then again... if his condition changes.... SCARED LIAOZ... okies... whenever there's a "JEREMIAH:" in the title, it would be done by him... i hope he doesn't offend people... somehow a contrast between him and me... MY TURN TO BLOG abt ME!

Somehow, like daijun said, her blog was to keep in touch... so heartfelt... i want that reason for my blog as well... communication with friends and all that... very worth it... My blog is about me and me alone... so, jeremiah can't blog here for long......

Looking at my taggg.... katrina... it rings a bell... LOUDLY... I remember primary school, the life i had few good memories... constant bullying and such from all the boys in school, some bigger, sadly, some smaller... i remember 2 girls... around lower primary... katrina and lizzie... both my age... older then me, lizzie was even born in the year of the dragon... Weird to think that the first friends i made were girls and probably the last would be girls too... our mothers were good friends i think... that was how we as kids, we got together... katrina... i still can remember playing in bishan with kat in her masonette... i was so small and young then, all i could think of was probably, playing... i used to frequent there alot if i am not wrong... then she moved... father's name is spencer, mother's name is alice, sister's name is amanda... yeah... i also remember her sister having a condition... not clear in my head now... lizzie... an ABC... an A born chinese... waaaaaaaaahh... forgot what the A stood for... though i can't remember her forst house, i remember the latest one i visited... that was more like upper primary... she had ddr in her house and we even went overseas together with my family... malaysia while her mother and my mother climbed mount kinabalu... mother's name is kim... father.... aiya... forotten... i do remmber she not having a sibling... our mothers sometimes met up at kat's house once in a while then... we would play with each other for our ages were so similar... so coincidental... SADLY... i have lost much contact with them... okies... maybe all... lolx... i am hoping, just hoping, they kept in contact with each other... it would mean alot to me.... CHILDHOOD FRIENDS... hmmm....

o levels coming coming coming coming!!!!!!! i can't study well enough... and don't u dare say i don't need to study! >.< everyone everywhere, people are even gathering in groups to study.... does doing that actually help? boost confidence? i would do it mainly to socialise... stay close to loved ones.... alot of people would find me reaally annoying when i do join study groups... since the beginning of schooling or even studying as far as i can remember, i have always studied alone... :'( haiz... when someone asks me to join then, i would be really excited... really... but from the way he treats me, i do wonder, is he genuine, or just plain ACTING -.- lolx... i believe he is sincere... And thus, 4 people know my secret... Was hard to tell at first due to lack of trust which is a condition i had trouble with till i met hIm... God helped me alot... subsequent times were not easy but i had experience to have self confidence... it's all about letting go... HENCE, i begin to enjoy study groups which i never had the chance of tasting... Thank God and them... WOOT... Seconday life rox!!!

19th October JEREMIAH: Important: Class T-Shirt

2005-10-19T15:01:00.000+08:00

Ok, brothers. i have brought up the idea to javier about the class t-shirt. I'm going to tell you all the design me and javier confirmed on.

Firstly, its a concept from the snake game you play on your nokia phone. (the long crap moving around and eating other crap). You cannot touch or overlap your own body.

So.. ok. The front will be the 4-6 logo that you all should know about. it will be a small logo on the top left of the shirt. at the bottom of the 4-6 logo, a small 2005 will be there. thats it for the front.

The back will be a little complex. all or most of us are borned on the year of the SNAKE, right? Here is the thing, the more you eat, the longer you get, the harder the game. lets assume that we are capturing the screenshot of this game. A extremely long snake that move and form the shape of the 4-6, curve anyway you want, just don touch yourself, or else is game over. and this snake will be made up with our very own names. In index order, no favourism, buddies. and maybe put a insect in front of the snake head and the snake have its mouth wide open. and the whole thing will be surrounded by a rectangle just like your hand phone screen.

Now this country is a democratic country. We will give you all a chance to vote for two things...

1)(for those who play snake on the old and new nokia phone) Would you like the snake to be from Snake 1 or snake 2? Snake 1's snake is just a long black turning line and an empty background and the food is just a square. snake 2's snake is a green snake with a snake head and with colours and a background of sand(brown) with some grass patches and the food is various insects..
a)snake 1
b)snake 2
c)combine both,dammit! (that means use the coloured snake and insect as food but with an empty background)

2) the colour of the shirt.( choose by matching the picture you chose on question one, like as in the combined version of snake 1 & 2 is only good on white(for example))
a)Virgin white
b)dirty yellow
c)sexy red
d)cute orange
e)lovely pink
f)Horny black (Helll ya!)
g)others. wtf!
Make your choice carefully, i can tell that most of you WILL choose Pink as a joke. but so be it, you will be wearing it so its up to you. But if the colours all of you chose sucks. javier will have the "I'm da man" authority to choose the appropriate colours.

3)last question.. Jeremiah rocks big time! what do you think?
a)Are you kiddin me?! he rules man!
b)What can i say? he's da man!
c)He is like totally.. oh yeah.. unbelievable guy.
Choose from a) to c). There's no other choice you friggin bugger, just say it. i rock. i know you wanna say it all this while.

Okay, after making your choice, sms javier and tell him your choices or some extra suggestions which are useful. go to javier, not to me.

17th October JEREMIAH:

2005-10-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

12:42 am....

YO! A special guest appearance tonight! Yes, it's me, the most pro PS2 player around! *hears sniggering* Shut up, you!

Ha ha, i gotten permission to use bryan's blog for a while. This kinda rocks. I'm jeremiah, if you still haven't figure it out.

Look at the time.. my parents are asleeped. i can hear their snoring in the next room... ha ha. I just completed the prep work for my art O levels.. yup, it sucks. i work on it since Friday (farewell assembly day). Tomorrow handin it up to some examination centers... Speakin of farewell, Well.. sec4 is over man, and now we are sort of free.. but like usual, missing people of my class, but only to a small extent, since we will be seeing each other in many other big events like....

Some weird chalet planned by our class. i wanna go but there are some stuff i just can't say directly. Like.. I'm going to miss alot of things in the chalet because......1) I can't swim....2) I can't cycle.. yeah, i'm such a wuss, NO, IM NOT A WUSS! i tried to learn both things before. For Swimming, I went for classes in Pri 6 and after like 5 to 6 months, the instuctor say he will send me a letter to inform me to come to the basic swimming test for cert. But it's been five years.. Yup, i'm still waitin for that friggin letter, no really. And as for cycling, my father taught me how to cycle at the chalet and i fell and had this big gap on my knee, it sucks and i didn't cycle again. So what do i exactly know? Well, i don't play the piano everyday like a weirdo but i do know something... I know how to use Nunchakus, yes, the 2 tube thing bruce lee use, it's wooden tube not biological tube, don't read so much into it. I'm not afraid to say, i'm a tad good at it... alittle better than my father... heh.. cool ya? It's in exchange for not knowing how to swim and cycle.

It's gettin kinda cold.. even the window grills are cold and the night is so quiet.. ahhh... it's really comfortable.. dark, quiet, a little night chill...

Record, i did not make any enemies this year, well, one.. but he doesn't even know who likes him or who doesn't so it doesn't matter, he is non-existent. I remember i had quite a lot of enemies in sec one and two... screwed-up people.. all of them, most of them.

Just a short anime review.. recently finish Chrno Crusade... it's really very nice, not to mention the female lead, Rosette christopher is so hot. BUT, the least you would expect. the ending is extremely SAD and ROMANTIC (((*sobsob holding hands and watching the sunset then die together with both heads leaning toward each other with a smile on the face sobsob* )))
It's really.... hai... my mood went bad for a few hours after watching, sad and disturbed that an anime can make such a strong impact on me... Cheers to SISTER ROSETTE CHRISTOPHER....

I'm gonna make my own blog soon after O levels. Bryan will help me too.. heh heh, I'm gonna include game reviews inside. It feels like my talking is kinda restricted right? i have so many things to say but one wrong word might get me down on the wrong side of the law, so...

Cheers, my brothers, for i will return, time for me to take in the night air...

12th October

2005-10-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

A small dedication to everyone who have been supporting me... True friends i never knew would happen to me... God has blessed me bountifully and i love it :) Love love love love love u all!!! To think i felt so lonely... God was with me, bringing these lovers close to my heart... Starting with people around my age group:

Closest to home: #10-02

Liang Yu, Natalie, Joshua, Ian, PeiRong...

My beloved secondary school:

2703:RongSheng, KangRui, Wilson Tan, KangLih, ZhiHeng, Wilson Lee, Jason, ShiKai, Martin, Darryl, Shaun Ho, WeiHan, Jonathan Lau, Marcus, Xavier Yap, Wesley, SiJie, QiChao, YiHe, Dennis, WeeChoon, Charlie, PoHan, JiaPei, ToonHwee, WeiRen, ZiYan, Pierluca, QingWen, Stanley, Alvin(1702 :P)... 4605:Rongsheng, Aaron, Alford, Dexter, Eric, Richard, PeeSheng, Julius, Xavier Yeam, Ivan, Mellavin, KaiQuan, Jeremy Tiong, Jeremiah, ShiXiong, Nicholas, JooSiong, Billy, Shaun Goh, Sean, Joey, WeiHao, Giam Chong, YuGuang, Raymond, Daniel, Jonathan Tan, Cristian, Ben, Boon Teck, Eugene, Javier, Brandon, Jeremy Lim, ChunYong - more or less everyone...

Church friends are not that large a circle:

Joseph, Mark, Japheth, David, Nataniel, Spencer, Joel...

Plenty of other friends but i will touch on these first...

After this year, i will be soooooooooooooo emotionally sad... i think i'm going to desperately miss everyone... i hope we can forever stay close friends, so i can be with you for as long as i can... but new schools mean new friends... the old ones never die... knoww what that means??? MORE REGULAR OUTINGS!!! YAY!!!

With the stack of all these, there is still the external factor that rather demoralises me from studying... no motivation to study with the naggings from... My MOTHER... well, not surprised they nag anyway... i am forever on this computer... why??? i want to destress from her naggings to do work... It's a total chain reaction... she nags at me to work, i want to play more computer to destress... then she nags somemore, and i want to play even more... so a little give and take now and then is quite good for me... it's when my beloved friends call or i call on my lovers that she nags again... with all this nagging, will there be motivation to do work??? WAH HAIZ!!!!!! Especially mummy... >.< but that's the responsibility of parents... though their purposes may seem questionable... :P

All the best to everyone taking o levels this year... God bless you all!!!!

5th October

2005-10-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

Everything aside... my mind is a complete confused mush pile... i wonder and wonder... why are they doing this? i have lost most of my confidence as a result... I trust them, believe them and they turn around and you suddenly find out that it's not true... Falsohood... but then again, why??? why are they doing this? it hurts... doesn't it? it can't be fun... otherswise it's called saddism... is it revenge? have i done this to anyone? must be...

It gets harder to tell of my secret... to relate it out... it is painful... what? expect me to believe you again? after tricking me into believing something you so badly wanted me to know which was a lie? sure! I have so much saved inside of me...... i want to let it all out... All out... just release it...

28th September

2005-09-28T17:09:00.000+08:00

My secret... almost nobody knows... Besides God and the people who are involved in the secret, nobody else knows... Shameful? maybe... lolx... reaveal it? well, one day... right here on this blog... I've so much to say... i don't even know where to start... i'm not even sure whether i should start or not today... Well, i guess not................

24th September

2005-09-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

Lots to say.. dunno where to start...maybe tomorrow...

23rd September

2005-09-23T17:14:00.000+08:00

Okies... julius is born in the same as i am... so in other words, he's 16! lolx... julius bluff me! >.< lolx... never mind la... not angry... just feel a bit stupid... sianz... i actually believed him lo... somemore with the fake evidence, he managed to convince me to believe him! to think i seriously trusted him! OMY! i got tricked... the "evidence" he brought to school was a "photocopied piece of paper with his ez-link"... somehow, his ic: S8935576H became L8835576H... his date of birth became 22/09/1988.... SIANZ... fooled me flat.... how can he be from hongkong? mella also bluff me... say what he had that accent... and the worst part was i didn't believed everyone else... :'( i'm so sorry to them... like, not trusting them... i feel terrible lo... thanks to julius! >.< lolx... forgive u... quite funny right? made good use of stupid me... ur birthday present!~

List of things i owe:

to dexter: 3 meals... (i thought 2 only????) and 2 years' compensation...

to mugen: 1 meal of worht not less than $10... LOLX!

to wilson and tkr and probably "poodle": maplestory prepaid cards... aaron too rich le... don't get 1...

to everyone: a piece of ren qing... why?? cause i think i owe 1 to YOU... someone told me i was a selfish, ignorant liar... the words came together, to show a chain effect... a long story... and i actually thought i was right... but she made me analyse the way i treat people... and i don't think it will be very pleasing... so the ultimate solution is appeasing her... all i have to do is be myslef minus the flaws... and stay as close as possible to God... yea!

Today is somewhat the "last" day of school... next week is the prelims and the o levels after that, so it's practically chiong all the way and study hardcore liaoz (thought it should have been so long time ago) and finally, the first bridge game played in school... and alford learnt it in 10 mins... anywayz, i would like to thank david and joseph for teaching me how to play! :) hahahaha! who would have thought i learnt to play bridge over 5 cell gatherings in 2 months... LOLX! there's Churc tomorrow... wonder who's speaker this time...

21st September

2005-09-21T15:34:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i totally dislkike singnet... yesterday, they filtered off ALL blog sites! i couldn't access anyone's blog yesterday... or rather, those using blogger... even mine couldn't view... Today then can! SIANZ!

hmm... i made a very odd discovery today... i knew tomorrow was julius's birthday... but all the while, i thought that he was the same age as i was!!!!! OMY GOODNESS!!!!! he says that he is 17 tomorrow... i believe him... so convincing lo... anywayz, tomorrow he says he going to show me his ex-link... can cross reference... for 2 years liaoz... i didn't even know he was 1 year older than me, from hong kong and retained at primary 4.... TOTALLY in the dark... unless of course, it's NOT TRUE -.-"... but liddat can fake mehz?? so confused!!! if that's the case, 5 people will be 17 and i would still be 15... wah SIANZ! like, 1 more year for them to watch M18 shows while i can't even watch NC-16... not that i desire to watch some... but ya, use as comparison only lo... heehee... eric is worse lo... he's YOUNGER than me by 12 days... that's like, a super developed brain already in that young body of his! lolx.......

19th September

2005-09-19T17:21:00.000+08:00

On saturday, 17/9 i think, my family quickly packed 1 night's things worth of things... then we went to sentosa to stay for the night... on sunday the next day was the terry fox run thingy... with my physical inability to do certain sports such as running which i so much loathe, i was reluctant to even go there... pay money to do something i don't even like... good thing there was the free t-shirt... lolx... CHEAP!! also, the hotel stay was so good an incentive i was first to finish packing... so my family went there 1 day in advance to "familiarise ourselves" with the route... All was well on the first day.... buffet dinner!!! SO NICE!!!! oops... sorrie aaron... MUAHAHAHA! anywayz, spent 1 night in rasa shangri la...saturday, i woke up at around 7.00am... run was at 8.15am... God made it rain!!! i was so happy... can enjoy hotel without even running the 4km... YAY!!!! hahaz... bad thing is... i missed Church... david was like, wondering if i would turn up or not...

i moved seat with marus huang... why?? simple... 3 basic reasons:

1)I want to seat with aaron gian and listen to more para and liao tian... this oint nobody can say anything ahz... quite obvious wat... i would like to sit with someone who share the same interest as me... LOLX! though some of u may not like it... the process of decreasing para involvement is already starting... thought it will be EXTREMELY slow and there are no avaliable catalyst :P

2)I am not going to say i DON'T want to sit next to mugen... i just don't want to always be intimidated by someone sitting next to me... ALL the time... got too many reasons to support this liaoz... mugen, hope u are reading this... i don't wish to put u down, neither do i wish to criticize u and lose a friend like you... sorry mugen... i don't mean to like, give a negative impression... cause actually, u are a nice guy... just not tolerant... not to mention impatient(though sometimes i can see u trying :D)

No.1- please don't blame me for things that are obviously not my fault...
No.2- don't stress urself out... it's not healthy... and attitude will never get u anywhere... sometimes u scare me also lo... it's like, one moment ur high, the next ur angry expression is like, fierce kind... not the richard kind where forever look angry but giggle when i poke and not the julius type where it's PURE joking... ur's is the serious type one... agitate u and... BYEBYE! OMY!!!

No.3- be patient... and i don't mean towards me... to everyone... i know u care for me la! lolx... when other people like, ask me something, or word-ly attack me, it not necessarily mean they are bugging me... dun need to glare at them ya?? and word-ly criticisms have 3 types... constructive, enjoyment and malice... i have seldom seen malice... usually it's the other 2... so, i will listen to them too... it builds my character anyway... heehee... not as if U dun call me liddat... aiya... out of point...

3)marcus is simply so.... and not ass if he's not been told... i have heard 4 ways of telling him to keep quiet..

No.1- "U VERI KOK LEHZ!"

No.2- "shaddup la..........."

No.3- "u are like, extremely irritating u know!!!" (followed by a screwed face)

No.4- "marcus, ur too handsome liaoz, and God is fair..." i finally knew what it meant... LOLX!!

at least he's not like that anymore... 3 cheers!!! hurray!!!!! but i'm rooted... no moving anymore... i hope.... EASYBUSY LEMON SQUEEZY!!!!!

15th September

2005-09-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

Parents are different with diff people... now, mine are weird... i take my word back when i said they unreasonable... Or maybe they ae sneaky... In retrospect, they were strict!! VERY!!! but it fluctuated... HOW?? heehee!

At first in sec 2, they didn't have any ban at all... for more than 8 years and suddenly a ban... i would come home and switch on computer and play till dinner everyday... then night time i would try to study though usually i would fall asleep... too tired from playing too much... then... They decided to ban me from PLAYING computer... So, i couldn't play or they would disconnect my broadband... SIANZ! fine... nevermind! secondary 2 was the time when i was CRAZY about chatting... alot on msn... till very late... then... they decided to ban computer completely!!!!! FREAK OUT!

Fine... nevermind... i watch tv instead as computer cannot play... O ya! The most hilarious thing about banning computer... my mother will tape up the computer with black paper and long musking tape (the ones u can write on... broad also...) she bound up that one and signed on the tape... then she takes 2 digital photos of it with different devices and takes those devices-a digi cam and her hp to school... WHY???? i can't replace the tape and the black paper, her signature won't be there and it won't be exactly the same as the photos... and she still continues it this year... FARNIE!!! nevermind... then... i watch tv to rest... according to them, can only watch 3 shows... 10 mins of a show considered a show... like, watching Hi-5 tell their story and sing the final song-tthat's a show! i watched more than 3 shows and... they ban tv completely, inclusive of my siblings... so now how???? i still do 2 things... chat long hours on phone and invite people over to do "projects"... secondary 2 was the year where projects came to us like, every week... so sianz! so they would come over and play play play while i watched them win in gb... then when parents came, alternate tab can liaoz... lolx... but eventually my parents found out and... ban... cannot never mind anymore... HAIZ! so that was when i thought they were unreasonable... until they FULLY lifeted all the bans all of a sudden... it wasn't even after exams!

They totally lifted all the bans then and i was so shocked... that was last year when results shot up rocket high... YAY! :D fastforward to this year.. the process is repeating again!! Haiz... now they are at ban computer games stage... according to them, 12 points is very bad... fine... can't go alot of places... but so what? only prelims... sianz...

Influence is the key to alot of successes... Causing things to go your way or gain confidence, trying not to do the wrong and condemned things yet having decent fun... Wouldn't that be nice?? Well....

12th September

2005-09-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

What is the world coming to?? Boon teck is a level 13 warrior playing maple! MY GOODNESS!!!! Sianz.... Totally freaked out lo.... if i am lower level than him, i most probably will stop playing online games TOTALLY! Cannot lo!! Cannot lose to boon teck... Latest i know, wilson tan reach level 48 in mapole liaoz! So PRO! overthrow aaron gian liaoz... THRASH THRASH!!!!

Okies... i said before i will not scold teachers... but she is totally BIATCHED UP! TOTALLY SLARTIFIED! PRACTICALLY VIXENIED ALSO LO!!! GRRRRRRRL! pms! must have been extremely bloody with solidyfired substances in the pad... if not, it flowed out like a rushing river... to think she has changed... i dun think she's making an effort... she can blindly jump to conclusions and never admitt her incorigible mistakes even affter SOLIDLY proven WRONG!!!! with evidences... so..... TITACHED UP! >:(

the more i see the bg of my blog, the more i wanna delete it... hmm.... looking for something that says:"i'm bryan, extremely innocent yet not to be messed with..." OOOOOOO! Anything got to do with PARA!! YAY! So thankful my brother's friends are here... "they" can play dota and i can blog in peace... and my father cannot say i'm PLAYING computer.... SIANZ!! why can everyone else play, but me!! :'( homework is too much so i wouldn't dream for a minute about caring at all... After all,. what's that in the sky??? LOLX! it's coming towards me!!!

9th September

2005-09-09T17:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was yippie's bday... i went to raiders to meet him and saw raymond sitting at the corner of the lan shop... I stood beside him and sneered as he played dota... he didn't recognise me at all lo!!! so farnie... he looked at me twice and didn't know it was me... Lolx... Anywayz, after 5 mins in the lan shop, something very very hilarious happened... All of a sudden, every single computer there in the lan shop simply switched off... power cut!!! OMY!!! so funny hearing everyone call out to the za bo at the front desk and demand free games... So FARNIE!! the machine to check pricing at first was not spoilt... it got spoilt!!! everyone thought don't need to pay lo!!! then the maintenance guy had to come to get power back on... he did get it back on eventually... waited in the hot lan shop for quite a while... so sianz!!!! after that was lunch at pizza hut and then arcade gaming... his pressie frm me was a "GHOST SQUAD" card for the game... One VERY important discovery i made... only applies to ppp fans... i found an arcade within 20m from the entrance of jubilee... SO OMYACIOUS!!!! it has pp 2nd mix!!! and the pricing is so tremendous... okies... $2.10 for 5 credits... One game of ppp 2nd mix consisting of 5 songs provided we don't take non-stop mix is 1 credit!!! ONE CREDIT ONLY!!! that's less than 50 cents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Compared to jubilee, it's less than half the pricing even if i'm a VIP!!! LOLX!

Dinner was at marche at sun tec city... before that, marcus, me and harry went to the arcade there... harry played marvel vs capcom 2 while the 2 of us watched... during like, second last round, someone stood behind harry and watched... marcus looked at that guy and opened his mouth... he pulled my shirt... "look behind u..." i turned and saw wang jiunn!!!!!!! OMY! our chem teacher at the arcade "hanging around" according to him in sun tec... he was with someone... OMY!!! couldn't believe it... anywayz, i stayed out till around 11pm+++++++ then uncle william brought me home... marcus got a neon green mouse and GUILD WARS as a pressie from him!! So envious lo! lolx... he couldn't play city of heros anywayz... lousy computer? well, those who were there... harry, christopher, edwin, alex, uncle boon hock and uncle william... All their conversdations were funny... until they talk about chim old boys stuff like inscence(something liddat) and ogree(also something liddat)... dunno what it means... can't find in the dictionary... o ya... one of them means family love right? DUNNO LA! SIANZ... so confusing... then they talk about the russels comedy... SO LOLX funny... all of their minds so OMYACIOUS developed le... just like eric... OOPS... lolx... Got home around 11pm+++++++ and slept immediately...

TODAY! my mummy had like, more than 15 students coming over... more girls then guys... lots lots lots... lolx... my mother ordered chicken wings for them... the typical large pizza? she ordered one box FULL of chicken wings and drumlets!!! LIKE, SOOOOOOOOO MUCH! i koped like, 10? maybe more... :P supposed to come at 1.30pm but arrived at 2.30pm... left at 6.20pm... Haiz... the whole hall taken up by them... o well... their gone now!!!

It's amelyn tabora's birthday today... who's she? my maid... 9/9... easy to remember... it was din tai fung again for her birthday dinner.... She couldn't make a decision... not a single decision at all... so everyone tried to influence her to tell different things to my father who would eventually play la... shao min would persuade her to eat japanese, zech persuaded her to eat chicken and i tried to get her to chose italian... in the end, we had chinese!!!! HAIZ! anywayz, we had a really nice fruit charlotte... NICE NICE!!!

My first achievement... 30 mins of studying non stop!! YAY! i don't believe it myself... maybe because my table is less messier... this is one record worth breaking.... all i can do is TRY!

7th September

2005-09-07T12:57:00.000+08:00

OKIES!!!! It has seriously been a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time since i blogged... the longest i think... :P anywayz... here i am... sorry for the disappointment dai... hmm... i'm going to have to think up what has happened for so many days???????????? HAIZ... i think i need other people's blog to refer to also... when i grow old, i think looking at my "diary" simply isn't enough... So, all the contacts on my list are just going to have to gimme their blog entries... at least not delete those... everyone... including jiawei :P...

Zech just came back from camp... well, it's a Church retreat and i heard it was so much fun... hmm, 3D2N... So he has met Geraldine and Amanda... the 2 stightly advantaged girls in Church that i currently know of but not really got to know them much... Hee... Advantaged means... well, i'm not advantaged and aaron is not advantaged... u can guess the meaning... The thing about Church camps is, it's a REQUIREMENT to get to know others and even open up... well, i am doing it the slow way without camps as of now... so.... the next camp is a necessary... it will not deter me from going to Church... guaranteed....

To think back, i can only remember suffering under "pressure of tests"... well, only practicals and a few outings here and there, rebelling against certain teachers and what nots... the o levels are coming!!! OMY!!!! can't believe it... around 60 days till the first written paper... HAIZ! my mother has been getting really angry and irritated when it comes to exams... maybe because she's a teacher as well? So like, no more outings... (Sorrie YU! watch another movie another time okies?) no more long talks on the phone (THIS AFFECTS LOTS!) and like, no more TV and COMPUTER! on top of that, she's on this whole get fit and let's exercise campaign... It's like, i'm either at the gym, jogging or cycling everyday... to a certain extent, it's good... at least i won't pass out while studying hardcore which i hope and PRAY real hard i will, or at least attempt studying hardcore... but too unreasonable and i will probably pass out from too much exercise...

everyone, i need to refer to ur blog entries for information to what happened between 18th august and today... so, dun delete them yars? they truly mean alot to me... must start writing again then... HAIZ...

18th August

2005-08-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

Yet another looooong time since i last blogged... A GREAT DEAL has happened... For starters, let's talk about prelims.... SIANZ! My L1R5 get 13 if my practicals do well... The odds that i get into the j-c of my choice is extremely slim... How come others can get so ideal results? They study... I slack most of the time... HOW??

Slowly walk back... Today i had english oral... I was NOT satisfyed at all! They were sooo dao, diam diam all the way... Not a single acknowledgement, not a single smile, they just stared at the floor and look away... The indian one on the left was like, waving the sleeves of her cardigan and the chinese one, practically c cube's sister looked more like a man than xie... Both were women mind you... They made me think i was a total bore and i began to panic... Panic led to stammering cause i forced my voice to come out... The examiners could only look everywhere but me... Like biased or something... I felt i took only barely a few minutes only... So SIANZ! They asked me only 1 question each for both components... It is like i was so terrible that they couldn't be bothered... I left feeling very down, but whatever, it's over....

anna totally broke down today... literally... the 2nd teacher in secondary school i've seen that looked so depressed and sounded so sorrowful... it felt as if she was about to die... her situation goes like this: she feels that everyone took her for granted and treated her like she don't exist... Then she deduced that it was partially her fault and said that if she ws appreciated, someone would rally to get people to vote... so now, she's on this mission to improve herself... quite sad lohz... i got tear when she say what she did... then when she stopped sobbing, someone had to try to console her... so someone did, i don't blame him... but he made her cry again... OMY! haiz... i wonder if that's the way i am as well?

Let me see... the time table in school is very different now... there are longer hours and i hope would be more effective... i really need to start well, bucking up and all...

Earlier this week, something very nice was brught to my house!!! i have the sensors here!!! YAY! my very own machine... i mean, i can play it at home lohz!! Marcus yip doesn't know it... and he doesn't like PPA7... we'll see about that....

13th August

2005-08-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

Lots of things to say since national day... as so much has happened... extremely happy times, revealing periods and quite saddening moments for the few of us...

I just want to say, my languages has never been good AT ALL... many ways to prove... report card is an example... so, to me, i deserved this B3... but i also deserved the distinction for chinese oral!! YAY YAY! I tend to find my maths a bit easier... :) For the record, xie has done alot for us already... Quite sad la... she did not meet her target... 75% distinction... well, she did get 75% B and above... so, well, yeah! Erm, gratz to those who got A1, *smiles at those who get A2, *weeps with those who get B and below... liangyu got A1 lohz! ur mother muz be very happy... boon, female and male, A2... OMY! lolx... Good for u all... i'll try harder...

The next thing is going to be very suanny... My maths, i'm so happy... PERIOD...

On 9th august, marcus huang's bday! Let me see, pool at paradiz.. i mean snooker followed by a little lan gaming... my newest and nicest favourite heros... Now, fat and bulky melee heros... Centaur, butcher, OMY! yay!!! Me, aaron, marcus and marcus beat rong sheng, mella, raymond and daniel who was assisted by mugen... LOLX! OWNING! then, me, aaron, eric and versus raymond, mella and marcus... so fun!!! marcus, bday boy, kept feeding eric and aaron... LOLX! aArOn is beyond godlike, someone, kill him(it)!!! that was a luna was it? or bone clinkz? not sure le... so that day i officially owed rongsheng $140 for the para cds and $80 worth in the tapz card... now, to chang ps card to vip...

It was national day and i rushed home to watch the parade... okies, the parade gets nicer every year and this year is no exception... very impressive... also, it's the first time i found out that our school got take part before... lolx... anywayz, went to liangyu's house to watch the fireworks, wuite short but worth it la... watched shooting stars there, and i quite like it! good story line and not a bad cast... except for sly, i like the other people and the roles they are playing...

i was just at kq's house... his BDAY!!!! lolx... another 1... his mummy threw a party and invited alot of people to his house... let me see... i discovered something... aarongian has 4 abs... MY GOODNESS!!!!! yar lo... don't belittle him ahz!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! how'd i know? we went swimming! kaiquan's condo is sooooo much better than mine... same for annatan... speaking of which....

side track for a moment... me, eric, ongyuan, aaron, rongsheng and dexter went to look for a gift for kaiquan... we couldn't find anything suitable enough for him so we decided to buy him a belt... As eric was purchasing the belt from the woman, anna tan called me!!! On my hp... I was like... (HUH??)... so i answered and annatan asked me where i was... "j8 with aaron gian"... "oh... so u did not go play parapara??"... i was like... (WHAT THE...)... so i said,"no i didn't go...". her reply came as a surprise to me.... "i wanted to sree you para..." (-.-' excuse me?)... "really, i'm serious... i want to watch you dance! i will sponsor you too!"... i couldn't believe my ears... that happened immediately after kaiquan called me with his lunch order...

Back to his party... dinner was so superb! thanks mrs cheng and mr cheng... i mean, seriously, they were sooooooo hospitable... the immediate contrast of my parents... Weird! kaiquan has all sorts of nice things in his room, for example, this telescope... i think he uses it to spy on people in his neighbourhood... OMY! he has 3 televisions around the haouse, maybe more! 3!!! i have like, 1? Anywayz... majong and ps2... and o ya... tennis... his gang of 4 including tommy and shaun came as well... play play play fun fun fun... my day ended very excited!!

For the rest of the year, it should be study all the way i guess till after o levels... 1 extra subject to study now... CHINESE!! sianz... lao shi is confirm going to be very angry... so must get an A1 again... WA SIANZ!

8th August

2005-08-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

I have lots of things to say today... Well, i'm going to leave out the bad and sad parts... I would be writhing for a pretty long time if i did... Haiz... My mother's students are here... I don't want to be so obvious counting them... About 4 girls... And 5 boys... Well, she TREATED them to pizza... Like xie... There are many good teachers around the world... good good... Frankly, the girls are making me uneasy... I went to get pizza and they immediately said:"hi Bryan! You got a grilfriend or not?" I mean... So awkward lo... HAIZ! The guys stink... well, most do... B-O-KS!

Today was national day celebration... it wasn't evactly that memoriable... i went to school and had no face to see them... aarongian was sick with a throat problem, my good friend was sick from esplanade... HAIZ! and... well, i think i have been shunned by them... it was my fault anyway... if someone expects you to show up like a date, and you don't, they would feel rather annoyed, disappointed and depressed... so i don't blame them... Face the music... lolx... The performance was not a performance at all... i think... i collected my service award from bala... and joined the class again... not prestigious at all so i did not feel very excited... though i thought it would look beautiful on my report card... Erm... Thanks to mr fernandez ba! :) then, community singing was like, totally funny... krishnan went on the stage to make an appeal and began singing... on the MIKE! OMY! dannytan, lawrencetan and dennisleong also tried to get us to sing... Of course, we were somewhat un-cooperative, apart from the few from 4-2 who sing in such a farnie tone!! " weeeeee the citizens of S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E..." OMY! LOLX!The worst thing of today was that i brought the wrong bag to school.. Instead of the usual grey "handbag", i brought the table-tennis bag... SIANZ! No waterbottle, no cd... haiz... To make things worse, i forgot to bring my spectacles... i couldn't see more than 20m in front of me... 10m was a blur! th 2 i most liked were like,"oh... there's that boy's name... err... bryan right?" and i was like,"hi?"... can really tell the distancing... And i'm either getting jealous or even more starry eyed...

Speech day after it was so sarky... I mean, so boring and sleepy... the my boey dunno how to use mike, the scary thing if the mike was upside down, it would be working fine and he would be using it like a handphone throughout... fortunately, the ava boys were so effiecient and corrected him... or else, everyone would be giggling away... lolx... I was so bored and envious of award winners... i wanted to leave and play computer... I saw jeremiah's mummy.... Apart from being alone, no comments... so caring...

Tomorrow is marcus huang's birthday... going to celebrate with him at j8... And friday is kq's bday... at his house... :) they are all turing 16... fine, young men... while i'm still an innocent young boy... :P glad to be...

7th August

2005-08-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

I just want to say sorry... Sorry for not being there despite the effort you put in... I have no valid excuse... A birthday cannot be used to justify... I'm sure it wouldn't have made much of a difference anyway... I would just be a little insignificant person there right?... What's so different about it this year anyway? What could be so special? It's been the same every year... Boring, stagnant, uninteresting... Nothing good... other than my best friends performing in it... :'( Forgive me guys... Make it up to you someday... Promise...

6th August

2005-08-06T13:49:00.000+08:00

OMY! getting hooked on city of heros again! level 20! i can get my cape... my cape my cape! Hmm... nobody in my supergroup is playing anymore though... sianz... coach playing guild wars... everyone move over there... haiz... maybe i will play something else too... maple? hmm... aaron level 32 liaoz... by now should be 35... and everyone all playing hardcore since the exams are over... maple, conquer and world of warcraft... o levels is the next big thing... opps... reminded myself that prelims could have jolly well have screwed up totally... what j-c can i possibly go to with more than 15 points? HAIZ! well... i didn't study much anyway... The prelim period seemed slackier than normal days...

My prediction:

E Maths: A1!(dropped from sky! :P)

A Maths: A1!(dropped from sky also! :P thanks you GOD! Praise your holy name!)

Social Studies: B3... anything less and i'm going to forget about my elect...

Geography: B3... Goes with SS... somehow, i crapped my way through this one...

History: B3... I NEED THIS B3! alford is the best in figuring out topics that are coming out... so zai!

Chemistry and Physics: I'm seriously expecting a B4... The tests were like, super easy for everyone... dennis can even say on a scale of 1-10 where 10 is the hardest, physics mcq, one of my worse tests was a 7... sianz!! I can't complain... i didn't study much the 2nd week...

Hopefully, no teacher sees this! Hmm... many things going to happen... let me see... esplanade, people's birthday and national day... which means LAN on that day! fun!!! Yupp!

3rd August

2005-08-03T13:31:00.000+08:00

So far, it has been a demoralising day... Let me see... Can't say anything... I did not really study... honest... I mean, for one hour of studying, how much achievement can be made? Physics was so hard! Amount of marks secured: 23... WAH! hardest paper so far... Other people like yu guang sure A1 la... Haiz... But it's all because i never study... In fact, prrelim week feels slackier than normal days... Cause... there's NO homework! So in the end it's slacking all the way like always... Oops... OHMY!

29th May

2005-07-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hahaz! Today, a most embarassing thing happened... I went to school with an upset tummy... Upon arrival at about 6.40am, i suddenly needed to clear my bowels real bad... DIARRHEA! So, i raced to the cubical, pass out and suddenly felt that i had been too rash... I did not have paper with me... So in a moment of... DESPERATION, I had to sacrifice my........ I resulted in not wearing it for the rest of the day... KAOZ! Only like, a few people knew... Cause i told them... Cause i needed stand by paper... It felt so awkward lo! The feeling of nothingness and emptiness in the southern area... It's as if it's being exposed liddat... >.< Squinch and press that area just to feel secure... And feel not so repulsive and obscene... Of course, NOBODY could tell... lolx... had there been a mustant with see through vision in Singapore, he would have seen......... Anyway, i got home safe and sound... Thank God! Hee... Back to playing city of heros again... During the prelim period somemore lo.... Haiz..........

27th May

2005-07-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

3 tests all the same format!!! WAAAAH! Source based, horrid structured and only 1h 30 mins! HAIZ!!

There's that same feeling when i take people here... Like, i'm visiting someone's house liddat... It's somewhat weird right? My own house seems distant... Usually, i would feel it to be sooooooo routine and a particular daily thing... Why does this feel this way?

19th May

2005-07-19T15:14:00.000+08:00

Why am i so paranoid ahz????? Reality check... I need what? Assurance... That's normal what... Bloggies are ramplings about what i feel, think or decided... So, i would vent and burst... You may not agree, but it's your opinion... Remember, there's no particular way to determine somthing... I feel that sometimes i offend people, and they keep quiet about it, or it affects them in a very negative way... I hope that doesn't change one bit of our relationship... No hard feelings... If there're things which i rambled but u see as untrue, well, u can confront me then... I don't mind receiving advice... But *smacks forehead* who am i kidding? Few really bother nowadays... BAH!

15th May

2005-07-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

My mind is confused. I have no idea what to say. It hurts. It does. God cares. His care is so sweet. They care. Their care hurts. His care is boundless. Their care has a limit. His love never ends and I know it. Their love will end one day, but as of now, my faults are blinding me. They love me no doubt, but i can't see it. They know more. Should they? Is what they view me correct? The truth? It matters. If it's not then they are wrongly witnessing. But it's still their opinion. I must have done something to say things like that. So it's credible. Reliable! The things they say are to help me. Not to hurt me. They seem different. But that doesn't mean that will change a friendship. Or have i changed? I start to see things wrongly? I DO NOT want to loose them. But it fels too hard already. The times have changed. People change. Do they want it to be the way it was? I cannot tell... Maybe it's the starting of a blissful relationship? They are begiining to care, for they are correcting me. Or maybe they think that next year would be separation? I still don't know. I mean, i like them. I love them. I would......... if i had to. The way they put it is so harsh. Hurtful. Sad. Mean. And they refuse to tell me. Why? They don't want me to be a better person? Or they do not want to hurt me? It works both ways right?
Bitchiness? Hypocrisy? Exaggeration? False testimonial? Do i really posess those? Bitchiness... yes? Can i deny it? Refer to it as pettiness... Admit?? YES... Hypocrisy? Promise breaking... Terrible attitude towards other people. Acting the self that's not me. ADMIT?? YES... That's horrid of me. But how can bitchiness be one of the hypocrisies? Does it benefit me if i were sissy? Still continue? No... But i do think i have a minimum chance of changing... ADMIT? YES... Exaggeration? Screaming... Sharp screeching... Irritating... Somewhat odd only... ADMIT?? YES... False testimony? Lies... Falsehood... Deception. Hiding truths... Am i so cruel? Are these TRUE?? ADMIT?? YES... They are... That's how much i have sinned... Much MORE to be precise... And they are making me realise... Only God can help me now.

Fine... My fault... What did i do? I think too much. Maybe it was unknowingly? All the more, it shows that it has become a habit... They put it across to others. Like it doesn't involve me. How do i know? "They" tell me. What else? I don't blame either party. As i said, it works both ways. Maybe they do not want me to think too much? Or they are actually just irritated by it only. Small deal? Or is it not? It blocks my chain of thoughts because i stop dead in my tracks here. If they did not want me to change however, it's a whole new story. I know how some people can be downright mean and sluttish. I have haerd more than enough stories to know. But it's ruled out. Nobody i know of can ever be that mean. Not even if i know what they are capable of. They look so cheerful when i see them but they suddenly become serious and ignorant when i'm near. More often it's outside home and school that i can tell the difference. Should i bother? I don't know what to say. Would i have done the same thing? I'm not sure... It's chaos and havock in my mind now. There are factors to consider.

I can't follow the crowd. Literally... Figuritvely... I can't relate and i mustn't relate. There are constrictions that affect my thoughts and motives. Propoganda is very strong. Sometimes, i do not even know whether it's correct or wrong. I analyse and act out accordingly. Or at least i hope i do. God made it clear. Follow Jesus or follow him. it's not a sacrifice. It's a decision. Besides, i do not get to miss the fun of life. But there are things that i must do and things i must not. I need God's help now... Seriously need it. After all, even if nobody loves me, God does. And it doesn't matter if they do. They come as a bonus. The love i long from them can only be so much. Ultimately, it cannot affect me spiritually. But, point taken.... Even bullying me helps me in one way or the other... Don't fight back when i can control it. Just get the ulterior motive of that action take. What can't kill me will only make me stronger... So, thanks to them... Lord, bless them....

13th May

2005-07-13T17:31:00.000+08:00

Investiger is one of the times where i can somewhat perdict what will take place after. Someone, be it teacher or principal, will definately make the whole cohord stay back and scold us... It is always nice to see friends up there on stage, looking AH-HEM and shuai and wei feng and simply well, adorable? Hmm... the list: shiow-hao, alford, eric, guowei, zhengkai, ziyan, jason, chihhaur, shikai, jonny nad rayston (did i miss anybody?)..... Zheming was like so sad lo... Kena tekkan by the school... Got like a few others also... So darrylleong will say out their name... "Lim Zhe Ming, from the" and darryl will make the pitch higher... "StUdent Council ProJect MAnager!"... Silence for a second and.... "BOOOO!" So sad lo... I won't likle it if it were me... But he's so robust... Consider things like this as common and used to le... Wah... Pei fu... Got alot of things i can't remember that were so hilarious that it was not exactly that boring... The student leaders can leave lesson early la!!! KAOZ!! *envious*

Summary tomorrow, so the truth will come out... Is it B3, B4, C5 or quite obviously inevitable C6? Hmm... *sobs*

12th May

2005-07-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

School is getting kind of odd. Maybe it's me that's the weird one. I feel as if i am distancing away from people. Many people alike... Haiz... Feeling more and more, well, lonely? Maybe that's the way i am? Some don't even like me... :'(

Poor mummy. Being a HOD of english is not easy for anyone. Why? 3 reasons... Unco-operative teachers, setting of papers and having a child that sux in english...

1)Unco-operative teachers... She has to collect files and view work from all her english teachers and it's quite a pain when she has to mark compositions of the whole level... So saddening...

2)Setting of papers... She will mug other sources for good passages just to set 1 pathetic little comprehension. It's scary if she has to deal with diciplinary problems involving the papers like what happened today. Rumour went around my mother's school about the sec 4 prelims oral examination questions and almost everyone heard about it. It was a downright fake created by a mean person who played a trick on his friend. His friend was so dumb to believe he started spreading and it reached my mother's ears... People can get sooooooo mean.

3)Lastly, Having a child that sux in english. I mean, won't she feel very awkward? HOD of english lehz... MY GOODNESS!!!

A few more days before prelims... I'm starting to get anxious already... O dear...

11th May

2005-07-11T16:51:00.000+08:00

Really long since I last blogged... Lots of things happened in between... The pile of homework is good enough evidence why i didn't blog... Like ~duh!~... So angry at that crisis...

Prelims coming and i seem to be doing maths everyday... School A to F... Full set... SIANZ!!! I can't even finish my homeowrk... Teachers all pms... Even males... ARGH!! So much homework!!!! Likai came over twice... Both times went home somewhere around after midnight... Homework for so long from 8pm still cannot finish... Have to practice sciences le... So much... Speaking of prelims, english was like... HAIZ! To look at it on the bright side, my oral pulled me up. To put it frankly, i did so badly for my compo and compre. 14/30 and 12/25 is like, a FAIL... Hopefully, i can get a B3... So my summary must get 20/25... No kick!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!

It's the worst time to worry about a relationship and problems involving the heart.. Almost all the time is being concentrated on schooling, homework and such. We must take time out for more important stuffs, like other people's relationships with God and whether seeds are sown or not. More often than not, a "partner" is actually very vital in one's life. As in bfs and gfs... They motivate their admirers to do things they ought to and that's good. It is not good however when it comes to the part where they absorb and drain too much time out that it becomes not practical. I should not think of it as an investment which pays big dividends. Other people may say things about me which may really hurt and make me feel extremely low and lousy. It's when my friends step in and assure and comfort me, criticize me and advice me that i find true friendship in such trying times. Not that i should do that all the time. That would be the investment. Of course, this happend after my turn to God. This relationship is one that will nevery fail. God keeps everythin in place and will never take time away from my school... What's more important? This relationship is. I love my friends, ALOT. How do i know if they love me? I know God does.

I am loving my cell more and more... Hmm... Maybe i'll get tekan by them in the future... Who knows? You guys rock!

5th May

2005-07-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

Know what my oral got? For acting normally, i can get such a score for oral?? Wah... O levels get this and i'll be happy!!!

My hotmail got problem... One hour there's no mail... I send twice, and people have both in the next... All cramming for the o levels tomorrow... Chinese oral playa a big part... In fact, oral plays a big part in all the language examinations... MUAHAHAH! I got experience... heehee...

4th July

2005-07-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

The longest period of time before i posted... Like, just came back from Bintan, blogged.... One week later, then blog agian... Practically dead... So must write more!!! LOLX!!

Let me see... I want to start from today!! Just came back from mrs tan's house... Had like, SOOOOOOOOOO much fun!!! I got to do the things with the people i love and enjoy spending time with... every single one of them... First was "sports"... Everyone playing tennis and badminton, and i got a little footage... My memory ran out half way though... SAD! Then was bbq... I mean like, so much food, can't even finish lo... So delectable and simply scrumtious! Then... not that i wasn't willing or anything... I enjoyed being dunked... I mean it!! It felt quite nice actually... Like, you don't have to force yourself to get wet, people will do it for you, and tease and harass you so often... So much attention... But it was rather forceful! Pushed about 14 times into the pool, dragged 4 times and ganged thrice... HMPH! If my handphone got wet... It won't be too bad also right? i mean, i get a new one! LOLX! The second gang got me into the pool and the third was futile... I still had my suit on... :P Then more eating and BLAH BLAH BLAH.... Left... Only mr wang turned up... Don't know if happy or sad... Notice i tried to wear not as "..." kind of clothing... Jeans no one can say anything... WAHAHAHAH! I loved te time there!! Especially the PEOPLE there... Wah... Wee Kiat and Wee Leong went... The third one taller than the second... But the second like sooooooooooo cute... Mouth like acid one... Not vulgar, but sharp... Youngest brother a bit different... More of the larger side... OOps... Let's see who went: test the initials for classmates: ayytung, gpsheng, agcchun, cgcsheng, ckquan, dxkming, rlyjun, jcmjing, rnwjie, jtjwei, sloyuan, jtzzhong, cyguang, bedwjun, egmgen, gchong, mhjliang, jlzming, xywbeng, tbteck, etssong, jtchao, swhao, lrsheng, dlwren, mmzzhi, ojshiong, bnwsen and last and hopefully not least, btsrong!! YAY! i can remember... Woot! Only like 3/4 of us got wet.. The others either: can not swim, must not swim, could not bear to swim, or there was no way they could swim... Lolx... Best class? HEE!

After that some of us went for arcade!!!! OMY!! 10.15pm we reached... They switched off the machine at 10.30pm... SHARP! Half-way through my velfarre 2k... WAAAAH! I never get to finish that... A slurpie and i'm home, like at 11.15pm.. So early! Haiz...

Go on to let's see... Move back according... Yesterday there was homecoming, i didn't bother to go... I lost my tickets.. How sad is that? My brother and i didn't go for youth service because there wasn't... We were supposed to go for combined service today at 11.15am but went for the 8.30am one at 9.00am late... But that's not the point... Instead of the routine youth service, my family and i decided to do some "exercise" at our country club: THE LENGENDS at fort canning... I slacked, obviously, and wasted time in the gym, just playing around... That gym super g*y! Extremely well equipped with high tech machines! Over 15 tread mills ( NO KIDDING) with 10 with private televisions just in front of it!!! The people there wern't many... I could like, play everything as they had sets of each... So fun! Then food at the cafe downstairs... Never order drinks without looking at the price... My family paid $30 for 5 glasses of lime juice that sarked! So ANGRY!

Back track... Youth day! Hmm... Here goes... Go to school, assembly, going to paint tiles but Xie called me down... Good thing too anyway... Got aircon and jbzhao to do my tile... YAY! Then me and aaron went to bookshop, i bought 2 furry cute things and aaron bought batteries... Went to help mrs tan with the jelly and ended up doing the teacher invitation card for 5 teachers where only 1 turned up... haiz... Then helped her sell muffin and jelly, in the end Xie bought all the rest, so sold all! LOLX! Not sure what happened during the game because was i was like, running here and there... But i think we lost by a point... Right? Anyway, CHMA at night as i heard was nice, but i didn't go... No ticket... Go aaron's blog to see... Got certain parts about it... I think...

Hmm, before that, my brother's birthday was on the 27th... We went to swensens in thompson plaza... $65 vanilla ice cream cake and there are 2 pieces left over... I saw qiu lao shi walking toward creststar centre... Maybe he teachers art or d&t there... I don't know... By the way, qiu lao shi is our 2703 way of acknowledging mr ku... Wahahahahah! Those were the days of glory! Now are the days of love! Bleah!~

I bought my brother 5 vcds to watched and we got scolded by our parents... Haiz... What's so wrong about it? Only 5... Ocean's 12, white chicks, agent cody banks 2, tales of unfortunate events and cheaper by the dozen... Scold from 10.30pm till 1.00am... So tired... And it's not as if he's getting more for Christmas...

Let's see... It has been so "stressful" for me that I had to loosen up a bit with a stressful game of maplesea... Now... homework is not done, and I do not think it will be for a long time... I do not intend to do much more, even thought prelims are but a month away and I have to catch up with aaron gian in maple... NO MORE GAMES FOR ME! One commitment that is soo hard to keep... hmm... Lord, help me to not play, or rather play only when I have to, or rather play less, or do work more? Amen... Aiya... Place all trust in Him... Can liaoz! Just let Your will be done...

26th June

2005-06-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

Alot of things happened yesterday night... For one thing, Ambrose and Mark Lee Fu Wen appeared at my church!!! LOLX! Amanda was like, "did u see Ambrose?" and i was like, "yea... Didn't recognise him..."... Yea... whatever... I don't even know how he looks like... Amanda knows so many cat high guys huh! OMY!!! Maybe... Nah... Sonic Edge came to our church!!!! SO OMYACIOUSLY AWESOME!!!! Singaporean version with some US members, but they were so on fire for God it's so wonderful to see it... My poor brother, the camera man, had to turn the camera all the way to the left and right as the speaker: Mark, gave his message... Walked from the left of the pulpit to the right and before the camera could turn with him and capture the image, he was walking in the other direction. Seeing my brother's agony, he stopped at a position, looked at the camera and said,"sorry, i won't move too much or this poor fellow must follow me all the time.." So much for a low profile...

My nephew is in hospital for a fractured arm.. He fell off his bed and to break his fall, he stretched out his hand and CRACK!!! So sad lo... 3 years old only? I was at his house during the day and he was sleeping in his bed when my family and i left. The whole family all worrying for him now, praying for him. The thing is, people are looking for someone to blame. I don't know if it's someone who has to be blamed or what, but fingers are being pointed left and right... Kinda sad to see such a scene.

Hols has ended. Homework not done, but i'm not worried... Why? I think i can complete them by tomorrow... how? I don't even know myself.

25th June

2005-06-25T16:20:00.000+08:00

Let me narrow down teens to believers of a relationship way of life, believers of extremely spiritual ways of life, and non-believers of any belief. Which ones do i think are actually the most "guai"? I myself belong to the first category, whereby i believe that a biased point of view is inevitable, higher order reliability or something like that. Reviewing based on my opinions... 2 cents worth only!!!

BELIEVERS OF A RELATIONSHIP WAY OF LIFE!

Let's look at Christians... We, believe in Christ, and we want to do what we should do! Whiich is to act holy andglorify God's name!!~ Or at least, we try... There are limitations we absent-mindedly set based on spiritual knowledge which is a good thing, but we sometimes cross that. Well, we keep out barriers there and usually don't go to extreme measures. However, with all the influence coming from everywhere, homework is not done all the time... :P (me as an eg) Why? SIANZ LA!!!!!! Not the right attitude... not at all... But because most of our parents give us a bit more freedom, we are genreally still guai and extremely happy in Church... Or most of us do... I want to anyway... ARGH! So ya, probably a reason why there are so many well, innocent? YEAH RIGHT...........

BELIEVERS OF EXTREMELY SPIRITUAL WAYS OF LIFES

I find this lot interesting. Look at Catholics... They are said to be the most "guai" of the others. Why? Pressure from parents, priest, zhang bei, all "force" them to be goody whenever they are. Yes they are in front of authority... No they aren't if front of people who do like them the way they are... So, with all the restrictions set by higher order people, it's no surprise that they tend to let loose on their own. Not saying that they do really nasty stuff, but they are slightly a bit more.... err... open? Lots of examples... Very LIBERAL and ACCEPTANCE of others.

NON-BELIEVERS OF ANY WAY OF LIFE

Not saying they are not guai, but it depends. Their god is themselves. So, they act out what they believe is right andbeneficial to them. It seems that these are the most straight forward and frank, for they do not have any rules and limits other than the ones set by themselves, not based on spiritual knowledge but on their own "religion". Some may even be wondering why they are here on life and have no aim during their stay on earth and may have never thought of what will happen after death. Don't think they will be their BEST behavious for that! :P

23rd June

2005-06-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

I have completed one piece if homework!! What an achievement!!! I'm so proud of myself. I don't want people to not have homework to show to krishnan anyway... They might get scolded... So i finished the only homework: history project... Yay!! Never let him down! :D

Tomorrow.... I'm going to start on teacher's homework proper... I started playing maple, AGAIN! Thanks to aarongianchiachun... Now i'm back to playing even more... Must stop... How many times have i said that??

I notice a trend among teens, boys AND girls... But i'm going to wait till another time to express... My mood now is ~HIGH~! Lolx Don't want to spoil my mood...

22nd June

2005-06-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

Today i go oral in school at 11am... Xie had this neckache and had this squishy bone cushion with hot water inside... She had vomitted earlier that day... (Wonder why...) Lolx... Only me and aaron go... aaron's mother called school to find xie's number to set a date for "private" tuition for oral for gian... He didn't want to go alone... So i went, since on monday i didn't go, was enjoying my holiday! She was like, offering sweets and teaching what she did on monday. Then she went off to zheming's house! For.... ORAL!!! Got other people turning up... He's such a poor thing... Study soooooooo hard, yet results so.... haiz... Me lehz? I don't study... Only flip textbook... Then... Err... Never mind... SORRY!!! ;P

21st June

2005-06-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

I was away in Bintan for 3D2N since 18th... It was sooo fun there! Jetski, banana boat, water sports... The sort!! My neice and nephew came along! So cute!!! But alot of activities they couldn't take part... If they did, they may not be alive now!! ;P Sometimes at night, dinner that time, they will get cranky and kick a fuss... Funny thing is they NEVER cried durignthe whole trip... I mean, even if my cousin scold them or punish them, 5 year old neice and 2 year old nephew did not cry!! Totally different from other spoilt children i know of... But my neice and nephew are not brats... So okies... The hotel was like, excellent service and awsome accommodations... I mean, the room was much better than other hotels i know... Quite costly though... But nevertheless, fun!!!

My phone bill peaked!! $127!! 1251 messages... Do i spend alot of time on it? Can't be right??? Not THAT high... Must do something about that peaking bill... Decrease chatting times? NO WAY! I love chatting... Aiya, just don't use GPRS... How does GEE! storage data system work anyway??

17th June

2005-06-17T17:33:00.000+08:00

Depression... Haiz... Events i don't want to remember and want to sleep and hope i forget...

Jealousy! Hahaz... A bit weird... You go green when someone talks about that something so much that you want to.... Ahhh!!! Forget it, what i dream cannot happen anyway... Might even be a good thing for me if that someone executes that something and that good thing happens... Won't be a freak no more, lose hope... Who would understand what i'm saying?? Is it wrong to.... *whispers whispers*? Yes it is...

Misunderstanding! This is very contradicting... I don't want "bytches and slarts" ruling the world, but i don't find para "bytchy or slartish". In fact, it's such a fun game that stimulates the mind and reflexes... Yar... How do i put this? PARA is NOT GAY, but guys who do the jonathan lau method are.... HAIZ!!! I don't do what j lau does... It's so...... indecent, almost selling himself as a.... *gossip gossip*!
Para is not a feminine game...

Went to kaiquan's house today... Well, tommy is applying for rjc and lots of others are all making use of "dsa"... He was going to rjc later to send in his application... Kq uses the tv monitor as a computer monitor! So interesting... His mother was like, so kind... Didn't exactly see the whole house but could tell that it was so very heavenly, but the trip up would not be the better part of the visit... That's also where i got that jealousy... Don't tell you why!

Tomorrow leaving for Bintan in Indonesia... Somehow, there is no excitement, no joy and no enthusiasm... Many people want me to play different things: dota, mu private serv, ro private serv, a3, maple.... It really binds me to the computer... Not that i'm complaining... :P My brother so franctically looking for ro private serv... Can find but cannot play, so disheartening...

16th June

2005-06-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

Promises... Do i keep them often? I try to, yes i do... Unless i can't afford to put in the effort. What i regret most about myself is promises, empty ones, exaggerating ones, unrealistic ones that i make, only to find myself caught in a situation where i can't achieve it. Well, i try to abide by my word, so i will go out to try and accomplish the thing, or stick to a plan, a decision. I can' tell myself i didn't try, but i feel so despicable and guilty, lifting the hopes of people, hoping to earn their trust, only lose it within a short time frame... Other commitments? WTW! I made promises while knowing i had other commitments and restrictions... To the 9 people i have made promises to and still remember but couldn't keep them, i'm so sorry and apologise... I will continue to try to alter it, though the time may be like, LONG GONE! The guilt is not the only reason why i'm still trying to achieve, but the inconvenience caused may be a bit too much! What i am very afraid of are 2 things: ignorance to the effort put in at the end and the forgetfulness of that person that i made a promise long ago about it... It is no where near their faults, i caused this to happen anyway.... Haiz, LORD, help me!!

14th June

2005-06-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

Long time since i blogged... Well, 4 days considered long? Maybe not la, considering the fact that some don't even update!!! -.-" alford, aaron and richard just left... Quite relieved... I'm quite sure they bored themselves to death, at least they can enjoy the journey home... Better than here anywayz...

I now know how much my mother loves me! I was expecting her to get extremely angry when my friends poped by, not that they were here, but that i would be re-living something that happened... NO WAY! I love this bunch! My mother can tell! She's so nice! KFC for lunch! So heavenly! If i were to predict what they are saying, it would be that my house is very BORING! They were here like, sianzedified... Haiz... Don't know what to do to... Talk a bit and then sit there watch tv and stone... That guilty feeling i have right now is a bit weird, most people say they have it, but what can you do about it? Haiz, i'm really sorry guys... Did i really sound as if i wanted you to go home that badly? I didn't want you to die of sheer BOREDOM, but with my mum around, the freedom is tightened... I much wanted you to stay ba, i'm bored alone... You think i want you to leave meh? OMY! Whatever la... History homework now! Yippie! >.<

Well, people would want the best for themselves... But, consider how others would react... Nah... My sarcasm is just for the fun of it... Don't take them too heavily... It's not that it is "the best" for me, but i don't want to hao lian, and i am really that gullible... If i were to act, i want to act not like me wat! XIAO! Act like girl really that good ahz? Not the least good for me! I mean... You know.... Yar.... It's just how i am... Know why i left Maris Stella already? Sarcasm is my way of saying: "I don't know what to say, and i don't want to say the wrong thing" Haiz... :'(

Hee... People think that a person like me would have many secrets... Well, i have la, but only 1... And that 1 is not that dark also... So, don't keep bugging me yar? The neoprint in my wallet is not an achievement! It's a friend thingy... Forever sistas! Got it?? Nothing wrong with boys taking right? Yar, whatever la... Photoprints can put "sistas" and "brudders" with me 1... So GRRRLL!!! *sticks out fist*

10th June

2005-06-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

There is no reason to get worked up in a game where it's a team event and someone made a mistake, right? I mean, if it's really sheer stupidity and unintelligence, then i understand... But if it's a newness to a game then it should be disregarded right? Then once that person is a pro, scold all you like, but not too rough... lolx...

I hope i can begin my work which i so do not have the drive to do... I see dexter, OMY! I'm like, awed! Hardworking to the CORE! lolx... He must have a good plan... A very very systematical plan... That's what i must have too! Then most probably i will do work with fun! But when do i start?

9th June

2005-06-09T19:24:00.000+08:00

Long time i have not blogged! I so like my blog!! Lately, i've been busy, with messages at some nights, frequent outings with heeboon and liangyu for neoprints and visits to lan shops... No motivation to study! How can i ever study without the motivation? God is helping me, so i must try!!!! Cut down on my outings? Sleep less? Like not sleep like the whole day of saturday... which i DID! >.<

Good news and bad news... Bad news first! I'm BROKE! Let me see... Monday, did i play lan? Tuesday, how much roti prate did i eat? Wednesday, wre neoprints cheap? Thursday, can the para temptation be easily resisted? Friday, comforts of a taxi is irresistible! How bad can that get? Bad news... my mood just does not seem to improve... Why is this so? What is the root of the problem? The source... The origin...

There's this thing about my mum... She wants me to work hard for my exams... That's not bad... But a little letting lose often is much appreciated right? And i mean, she doesn't give pressure, but she will keep those "lectures and coaxes" even though it is useless and meaningless... I mean, is it necessary to tell me that o levels are important? Am i not already working hard? A few As and Bs with no trace of a C and below! Wah! I don't call this tyco, thanks to the work of God and mine! Does my As and Bs drop from the sky? I don't think so right??? I also know that my As in o level do not drop from the sky... but if i am capable of those results, don't you think i know what i am doing? Just a little bit more hard work sooner than later... that's all... Right? My dad is just.... over emotional? Or is it exaggerating? Err... maybe sarcastic? I probably got genes from him... MOSTLY from my MUM?? NO LA!!!!! OMY! You think???

My classmates are a nice bunch... Peer pressure? NAH~! But there's the stressful part... Let me name 41 *LOVES* and 6 *NOT SO LOVES* of my SECONDARY CLASSMATES and SCHOOLMATES, CHINESE TUITION MATES and CELL MATES... :

Loves first: You...

1)know when to be serious and when to go wild

2)know what is too much to ask and too little!

3)can share with me your thoughts

4)treat me with much respect

5)always make me smile under your innocence!

6)are finally treating me like a BOY! *muacks* :P

7)can relate to everybody well

8)being there for me always

9)always treat what wrong i do as an accident

10)try your best to keep me occupied

11)bask in my intrests! AH HAH! :P

12)never end your chain of thoughts so dainty

13)share your DARKEST secrets with me...

14)treat my objects with respect

15)make me feel like i am involved

16)create a suttle mood

17)never fail to be there with me

18)never fail to inform me of very "interesting" things

19)remind me to stay away from SIN

20)teach me the EQ skills i need

21)never fail to please me with your antics

22)share your experiences all the time

23)seriously, MAN, i feel like a... NVM!

24)are less guilty and relate well

25)don't force me to do things i dislike

26)torture the teachers which i find hilarious

27)can lend a listening ear

28)educate me about the complex mind of one

29)assist me in school work

30)bear in mind that i have a heart and treat me the nicest

31)protect me without fail

32)have a perverse mind yet serious when i want it

34)accompany me when i require it

35) definitely brighten my day

36)remind me that GOD is number 1!

37)love me!

38)put me in your mind

39)consider what i would like and do it

40)take initiative to make my life easier!

41)do not differentiate a c-c and a normal guy!

42)give me encouragement

Not so loves: You...

1)act to make me change my mind

2)confuse me

3)harass me and keep irritating me

4)ignore me! :'(

5)present sarcasm to such a high extent

6)alienate me

This only applies to peers, mates and friends... Hahaz.. How i wish i could be almost 60% invloved in the individual lives... It would be so intimate a relationship... Teasure it and adore it? YES!! NO DOUBT! I LOVE YOU!

Good news... I am hoping for a 75-80/80 for my test today! MUAHAHAHAH! What about it? I was a bit careless at one point.... But fortunately i altered it near the end... I'm so happy i could so the similarity question! It is like, the first time in my life that i have solved this kind of a question! lolx! Yea... LAN tomorrow... I hope...

5th June

2005-06-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday morning, and i'm full of reverence and tlc(if you don't know wat t-l-c is, it is not tables-ladders-chairs)... No cell today as my leader has something on... His mission trip begins next week... Hope for the best! David, go to the ends of the earth!

2 days ago, i was out on the 3rd, the night with the band's aesthetique, with an "e" between "a" and "s"... Lots to say... MUAHAHAHA!

Firstly, i begin at the afternoon, around 2.30pm... At paradiz... Oops! Yar... lan with peesheng and joey.... Yes... Lost... Yes... dota!! lolx... Well, we went to Zone X and the X Square... Rushed over to city hall to eat and then met up with tbt and javier and weebeng... One thing about tbt: his walk is equals to a jog... I asked him how long it took to get to victoria concert hall... "5-10 mins jiu dao le"... I asked javier... "about 20 mins or more" See??? tbt walks like... CP30! Should have had a golden helmet and metallic body on him... Would have matched! BT4635? Maybe... lolx!!

Secondly, the actual concert... Erm, don't want to discourage the performers... So... Nice job!! Let me see... I actually liked 3 parts... The entrance of the concert band, JERICHO and the encores... A concert, regardless of what genre, dancing, rock.... As long as they make you want to do what they were doing, it was a success... I reached that point listening to Jericho... A bit late, but still, it managed to entice me... Abba encore was my favourite... Somewhat considered a remix, and i simply ADORE remixes... Dancing queen, Mama mia, Al fernando, Winner takes it all... Enjoyed that i did... aaron wanted me to include this: cristian was wearing a blue robe and a PINK hat... And aaron was lol-ing throughout... luke and his friend saw us and said that we were a noisy bunch, couldn't agree more... I saw a family of seven leave, and my two very GOOD friends wanted to LEAVE during the alumni!! >.< Well, we did leave during the school song, my GOOD PARA friend pulled me along... Not my fault! :P Overall, $12 was worth it... at least i got to see the people i was looking out for!

Thirdly, we visited Zone X again in jubilee... Yesss.... For that machine... AGAIN! I arrived home at 11.30 ++ Quite a nice time outdoors, but home is the warmest, safest and the best!!

2nd June

2005-06-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

Something happened during oral yesterday which made me very.... i don't even know how to put it... Sad, wrongly accused, yet angry and frustrated. Someone accused me of having my phone on during the oral and that it vibrated during his oral examination which caused him to lose concentration! Wrongly accused! My phone was off! Serene had to apologise to me after she accused me of leaving it on and having it vibrate when she was examining my classmate and got a shock of her life when she picked it up and saw that it was not even ON! Imagine how dis heartening it will feel. What's worse was that he told everyone about it but me... It's like, he wants to vent his disappointment to everyone and leave it as it is! He looked at me after the oral and there was no expression... dead... Not even my fault... Why must he do this to me? Am i not his friend? Or am i transparent? Maybe he doesn't want to blow it up? But why not tell me privately then? Tell others? WHY? He thinks it is no big deal? His oral is a big deal to me! He doesn't want me to feel that i created the problem? It wasn't me in the 1st place anyway! Maybe what he did was not wrong, i may be angry and sad for NOTHING! After all, he should be feeling agitated that his oral was a disaster... But what has it got to do with me? I did not cause it... Please can we patch it up? Please?

Madagasca today was nice... Just that it was too short! I was like, broke and kaiquan had to lend me money to redeem the coupon... Phew... Movie + popcorn, drinks etc only costs me $5! lolx! Few people are willing to watch a show like that... eric and ben showed up... HAPPY HAPPY! lolx...

1st June

2005-06-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

Oral today was simply gorgeous, simply exciting! I had seren and danny, and they were like, trying to act interested... I could tell that they had really tired eyes from the heavy eyebags... I found it rather a breeze to relate to them, after all, seren taught me before and danny was sooo friendly! A successful oral exam!

Dota again! Raiders, afternoon, blah blah blah.... This time, li kai, marcus huang and kaiquan and joey played. Joey was experienced, got about 6 kill frag! Not bad at all!!! The other 3 "noobs" were not very noobie with marcus huang as an exception, for he like, got killed at least 40 times, and since i was his opponent, he practically spoon fed me! richard and joosiong showed up and i was hoping that that someone came along but he didn't... :'( O well, i was crystal all the way and like, ending the "holey sheet" of richard! OMY lo!!!! I was like, leveling when his bounty showed up from invisible mode and i froze him, nova him, did ulti, attack him and he just died like that lo! OMY! I killed richard's bounty!!! Well, i had refresher orb, perserverance, power treads and point booster... Was about to get heart (just for fun, followed by stygan :P) but died too many times that i forgot about it... joosiong and richard team very xiong! very scared of them le... Another set of "cheaty" heros: Bounty and Luna.... grrrrllll.... Anywayz, marcus huang, kai quan and li kai all had 2 kills each... So quite an improvement! Somemore the people they killed were the "pro-er"s lo... aaron, me, joosiong and richard all tio (obviously ks!) ... Dwarven sniper, clinkz and revenant... Actually the more pro characters.... O well...

31st May

2005-05-31T10:26:00.000+08:00

I am now blogging at jeremytiong's house and his dog is running all over me! It is sooooooooooooooooooo cute and very very active! It's a she! Females are more aggressive, well yea... It loves to bite people and this jack russel is soooooooooo loving... I want to bring it home... Struggling on jeremy right now... drool! OMY!

Oral just now was partially problematic... I was like, not counted right??? and everyone was like, YES!!! for your 1st three months! OMY! I should have done a better job for the listening... BUT NO COPYING! So yea, sense of satisfaction! For oral we had 2 very weird questions! NKF donations through prizes and creativity building up in students in our school! What the... I was like... HUH??? And i decided that i will just li ti and talk nonsense... So i DID! FAIL LA! Never mind... All it matters is that it is in the past...

SIANZ! Tomorrow got english oral! I feel like it's a huge burden of languages exams on my shoulders, all agree right???? I want to play my game!!! Maybe i'll play later! Hahaz...

30th May

2005-05-30T19:06:00.000+08:00

First thing's first, ***SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM***!!! A real OMYACIOUS TEST!!! Let me go through the horrors of today's chinese o levels...

1st, letter writing, OMY! I write wrong question number, i think! So b****y! They switched the questions around and i wrote 2 for formal letter!!!!! OMY!!!! What's worse, that nobody found out, except dear liangyu, is thta the formal letter writing is not TELEVISION guang bo.... It's RADIO guang bo!!!! OMY!!! Throughout i put guan zhong, dian shi jie mu..... OMY!

2nd, composition.... Should have been easy right? >.< I saw the clock: 9.00am... I thought to myself, "S**T! Only "1" hour left!!!" and i rushed through the thing! I'm so blur!!! The thing ends at 1030! not 1000!!!! I managed to finish at 1000 and wondered why the teacher never call out the last 15 mins thingy.... And i screamed in my head when i saw the "ENDING TIME:1030" sign.... CRAPPY!

3rd, tian xie han zi, total failure, i just learnt qian song yesterday, and i forgot. Wat li lin i have never SEEN before! So GRRRRL!!! It is secondary 2 word which i have NEVER learnt! HAIZ!

4th, the xu ci so tricky i got only 2 or 3 correct.... So OMY!!!! The scary thing is everybody got the others correct and smiled all over lo!

5th,wan cheng ju zi, the 2nd 1 very hard to lian.... wat que neng.......... Very hard to lian jie! Zao ju i ALL DON'T KNOW! It's as if i forgot how to write my name! I did it the day before and did wrongly! Absolutely gone case!!!!

6th, i'm skipping zong he tian cong to li jie ce yan... Two questions were so tricky that 8 people can have 4 different answers... ALL TOTALLY DIFFERENT! liangyu and i got different answers, so..... byebye!!!

Li jie wen da should not be too much of a problem.... But i felt that it could have been a bit too easy! What's done is done anyway... No turning back! All in GOD's hands.... PRAISE YOU LORD! THANK YOOOOOOOUUUU!!!! Amen...

Out of the topic: Para! More and more people to compete for that machine nowadays, by boys and girls alike.... Is it going to be in a craze? I really can't imagine anyone else from my class other that 4 of us playing it.... Lolx! liangyu and heeboon wanna learn? shaun g, julius, anyone want to learn? I know choy is very interested in me playing... RIGHT? ;P But, yes... Not only para, but dota also... mandy play like, chose sa and start OWNING! Girl somemore... OMY! Lolx... But, yea... haiz...

28th May

2005-05-28T17:50:00.000+08:00

2 more days to our first o level examination! Really feeling the stress!! >.< Not enough time!!!

I don't want to brag, i don't want to be arrognat, i don't want to be proud, i don't want to demoralise people, so i shall not say what position i am in class... And i can understand that 4-6 people won't tell... They will stamp their foot and say,"Wa lau, that f****t got......" and walk away.... OOPS... ;P

Today we had like a little session with xie in school... She wanted to give us a little tuition, but we ended up copying the sentences and shouting answers... lolx! She treated us to pizza! It's like... OMY! and mrs tan brought in drinks and kitkat bars... I deduced this: they are RICH! OMY! and yar, they really want us to do well! Must get A1! MUST MUST MUST! But dota first... then A1... :P

26th May

2005-05-26T18:04:00.000+08:00

Am i full of pretension? Or am i dull? Or am i lame? Or am i ignorant? I can't tell what you think... and i want to know... I'm not sure you can tell what i feel, so this bloggie is here to show you what i really mean...

Unlike the depressing moments of yesterday, today was rather different... I saw my desired smiles from everybody! How lifting it is to see that vibrantness in the alluring faces of them... It is simply so.... OMYACIOUS! *MELTS* lolx... Yar... rather a blessing to enjoy their presence, tresting me like any other, not a freak, though the common criticisms are hurled, but, WHO CARES? I'm LOVING it... *MUACKS*

Carrie is the 4th AMI!! YEA! Support her since the time i saw her on tv... And now, she's like the best! Her "Angels Brought Me Here" and "Independance Day" are the nicest songs i have ever heard in the AMI series.... Best singer also... Wonder when her album is coming out? Buy it for sure...

25th May

2005-05-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

I don't know why... But bloggie seems to be the only thing to do now a days... I don't know what God's plan for me is... but in the meantime, i have my blogg...

Carrie rocks... Nicest song she sang at the finals... OMY!!! Such excellence, grace, poise, serenity... Takes some worries off my mind...

Loneliness, singleness, all by myself... Hahaz... Sounds all so sad, depressing, miserable... How can i feel like that everyday? It's not as if i don't have my happy moments... The smiles... The smiles they give to me... That's all i want... Who's smiles... those special few to me... School is like a movie i watch alone, where everyone are actors in a screen... Acting a show for somebody else, but unknowingly is seen by me... Nobody to actually play with, slap, punch, hug, kiss, snuggle, kick, pinch, cuddle, holler, shout, scream, blast, confront, comfort in... Or is it just me? I hope... Maybe it's the actions i do... Doing things i shouldn't and making people angry... Or it's the in ability to own up, or speak up, or open up... Due to seriousness? Holiness i hunger? High expectations for myself? Or for that person? Or maybe i'm just plain lame? Or it could be the fact that i find no common traits i share with anybody? I want to be able to get involved in their lives, them to be involved in mine and sow care and concern... I want LOVE, CARE, CONCERN, ULTIMATE ATTENTION... childish dreams to get that? I want to be able to be able to embrace that person in public without that person caring about embarassment... Can i change? Be the most popular? Most liked? Most loved? Most desired? Most lusted? Or should they change? No... It's never their fault... So it's mine? Must be... So i feel so alone because of my own faults? Maybe they do not know i love them... I do not mind the insults, fingers pointing at me, the disregard, neglegience... But they do... Live with it... How can i? I am who i am... I turned out to be like that... God doesn't make mistakes... Maybe i did... On my journey here... It was so painful... Now it seems to be better... Or not? I become disliked cause i'm like "THAT"? It does seem that way... But i like being like this... It prevents unrighteousness... Or doesn't it? There's the b***hiness of this character... That's unholy... I must apologise... Or maybe i do it too much? Sensitive? Yea.... Haiz... It's a lie to say you don't care what they feel... You want them to be happy, the best they can be... too much to ask? I will just go on consoling myself... True love never dies... This is not true love... Or is it? Sometimes, certain things happen that you do not want to happen, but it does... So... N-O one can blame me... And the blame from a problem caused by someone else cannot be placed on the innocent... But do i not have a partial fault to play? Things can be done to alter the event... Doesn't matter... Who would read to here? lolx... Argh... Got to go clean my tears...

24th May

2005-05-24T19:42:00.000+08:00

I had my spectacles done on like 21st... It was somewhat weird visiting the same spectacle guy again in 6 months... or was it less? I think it was less... >.< In retrospect, i had 2 pairs already and i lost both of them... Was like, totally sad... Hmm... for me, the third thing lasts... My 3rd handphone, 3rd wallet... so i'm hoping God removes my absentmindedness and give me the wonderful ability to remember where i "misplaced" my items...

The way it seems in school does not always appeal to me... It's as if u want to say something to everybody u meet and that i know... But a mere "hi" feels so hard for fear he doesn't respond... Ewww... Feels like rejection at times... I hate rejection!!!! Easily can tell when someone doesn't really like you... When he is so happy, smiling and everything and you try to tell him something, he gets your attention and his mood changes... The dark solemn "SIANZ!" face they show gives you the impression that either:

he's trying hard to smile and can let go that hypocrite face when talking to u...

he's irritated by your call...

he's just plain weird...

I rule the 3rd one out... How can someone in catholic high be weird? I mean... they have their unique abilities but they are not starnge... Conclusion: they don't like me at all... Sometimes you run out of things to say... Why? No bonding!!! I can go on and on with some people and i really enjoy it... But for some... Haiz... But it's okies... Used to it... LOLX! God LOVES ME!

2 places i like better than school... (Home excluded cause home is where the heart is): Church, Tuition teacher's house... I mean... the ultimate goal is to glorify God's name right? Then it would be eternal joy in the heaven with Him... So must start by not being a hypocrite, blockhead and c².... Set an example... By the way... i will change! Relieve that burden off my shoulders! MUST! Anywayz........ Church is a place where i don't worry what other people think... Only centred at God... Tuition centre is actually liangyu's house.... So... with liangyu, heeboon and ian to LOL, obviously, i will LOL with them.... LOLX!

My mummy locked up the other computer... So... GRRRLLLL!!! whatever.... i don't think she realised we have this computer i'm using now... She like totally barred it up by pasting black sheets of paper on the screen and signing on them so that i would not replace them and used it... Little did she know... i can use this one also! MUAHAHAHAHA!

I'm beginning to think that chinese is just a minor setback in my secondary life and that it will not affect me much... So... i basically... HECK! A1.... no biggie right? OMY! hahaz.... Yupps... i'll try to get that A1 the people around me so strongly believe i can get... Keyword: TRY... :P