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Sunday, June 26, 2005

Alot of things happened yesterday night... For one thing, Ambrose and Mark Lee Fu Wen appeared at my church!!! LOLX! Amanda was like, "did u see Ambrose?" and i was like, "yea... Didn't recognise him..."... Yea... whatever... I don't even know how he looks like... Amanda knows so many cat high guys huh! OMY!!! Maybe... Nah... Sonic Edge came to our church!!!! SO OMYACIOUSLY AWESOME!!!! Singaporean version with some US members, but they were so on fire for God it's so wonderful to see it... My poor brother, the camera man, had to turn the camera all the way to the left and right as the speaker: Mark, gave his message... Walked from the left of the pulpit to the right and before the camera could turn with him and capture the image, he was walking in the other direction. Seeing my brother's agony, he stopped at a position, looked at the camera and said,"sorry, i won't move too much or this poor fellow must follow me all the time.." So much for a low profile...

My nephew is in hospital for a fractured arm.. He fell off his bed and to break his fall, he stretched out his hand and CRACK!!! So sad lo... 3 years old only? I was at his house during the day and he was sleeping in his bed when my family and i left. The whole family all worrying for him now, praying for him. The thing is, people are looking for someone to blame. I don't know if it's someone who has to be blamed or what, but fingers are being pointed left and right... Kinda sad to see such a scene.

Hols has ended. Homework not done, but i'm not worried... Why? I think i can complete them by tomorrow... how? I don't even know myself.

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4:00 pm

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Let me narrow down teens to believers of a relationship way of life, believers of extremely spiritual ways of life, and non-believers of any belief. Which ones do i think are actually the most "guai"? I myself belong to the first category, whereby i believe that a biased point of view is inevitable, higher order reliability or something like that. Reviewing based on my opinions... 2 cents worth only!!!

BELIEVERS OF A RELATIONSHIP WAY OF LIFE!

Let's look at Christians... We, believe in Christ, and we want to do what we should do! Whiich is to act holy andglorify God's name!!~ Or at least, we try... There are limitations we absent-mindedly set based on spiritual knowledge which is a good thing, but we sometimes cross that. Well, we keep out barriers there and usually don't go to extreme measures. However, with all the influence coming from everywhere, homework is not done all the time... :P (me as an eg) Why? SIANZ LA!!!!!! Not the right attitude... not at all... But because most of our parents give us a bit more freedom, we are genreally still guai and extremely happy in Church... Or most of us do... I want to anyway... ARGH! So ya, probably a reason why there are so many well, innocent? YEAH RIGHT...........

BELIEVERS OF EXTREMELY SPIRITUAL WAYS OF LIFES

I find this lot interesting. Look at Catholics... They are said to be the most "guai" of the others. Why? Pressure from parents, priest, zhang bei, all "force" them to be goody whenever they are. Yes they are in front of authority... No they aren't if front of people who do like them the way they are... So, with all the restrictions set by higher order people, it's no surprise that they tend to let loose on their own. Not saying that they do really nasty stuff, but they are slightly a bit more.... err... open? Lots of examples... Very LIBERAL and ACCEPTANCE of others.

NON-BELIEVERS OF ANY WAY OF LIFE

Not saying they are not guai, but it depends. Their god is themselves. So, they act out what they believe is right andbeneficial to them. It seems that these are the most straight forward and frank, for they do not have any rules and limits other than the ones set by themselves, not based on spiritual knowledge but on their own "religion". Some may even be wondering why they are here on life and have no aim during their stay on earth and may have never thought of what will happen after death. Don't think they will be their BEST behavious for that! :P

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4:20 pm

Thursday, June 23, 2005

I have completed one piece if homework!! What an achievement!!! I'm so proud of myself. I don't want people to not have homework to show to krishnan anyway... They might get scolded... So i finished the only homework: history project... Yay!! Never let him down! :D

Tomorrow.... I'm going to start on teacher's homework proper... I started playing maple, AGAIN! Thanks to aarongianchiachun... Now i'm back to playing even more... Must stop... How many times have i said that??

I notice a trend among teens, boys AND girls... But i'm going to wait till another time to express... My mood now is ~HIGH~! Lolx Don't want to spoil my mood...

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11:04 pm

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Today i go oral in school at 11am... Xie had this neckache and had this squishy bone cushion with hot water inside... She had vomitted earlier that day... (Wonder why...) Lolx... Only me and aaron go... aaron's mother called school to find xie's number to set a date for "private" tuition for oral for gian... He didn't want to go alone... So i went, since on monday i didn't go, was enjoying my holiday! She was like, offering sweets and teaching what she did on monday. Then she went off to zheming's house! For.... ORAL!!! Got other people turning up... He's such a poor thing... Study soooooooo hard, yet results so.... haiz... Me lehz? I don't study... Only flip textbook... Then... Err... Never mind... SORRY!!! ;P

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4:00 pm

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

I was away in Bintan for 3D2N since 18th... It was sooo fun there! Jetski, banana boat, water sports... The sort!! My neice and nephew came along! So cute!!! But alot of activities they couldn't take part... If they did, they may not be alive now!! ;P Sometimes at night, dinner that time, they will get cranky and kick a fuss... Funny thing is they NEVER cried durignthe whole trip... I mean, even if my cousin scold them or punish them, 5 year old neice and 2 year old nephew did not cry!! Totally different from other spoilt children i know of... But my neice and nephew are not brats... So okies... The hotel was like, excellent service and awsome accommodations... I mean, the room was much better than other hotels i know... Quite costly though... But nevertheless, fun!!!

My phone bill peaked!! $127!! 1251 messages... Do i spend alot of time on it? Can't be right??? Not THAT high... Must do something about that peaking bill... Decrease chatting times? NO WAY! I love chatting... Aiya, just don't use GPRS... How does GEE! storage data system work anyway??

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10:45 pm

Friday, June 17, 2005

Depression... Haiz... Events i don't want to remember and want to sleep and hope i forget...

Jealousy! Hahaz... A bit weird... You go green when someone talks about that something so much that you want to.... Ahhh!!! Forget it, what i dream cannot happen anyway... Might even be a good thing for me if that someone executes that something and that good thing happens... Won't be a freak no more, lose hope... Who would understand what i'm saying?? Is it wrong to.... *whispers whispers*? Yes it is...

Misunderstanding! This is very contradicting... I don't want "bytches and slarts" ruling the world, but i don't find para "bytchy or slartish". In fact, it's such a fun game that stimulates the mind and reflexes... Yar... How do i put this? PARA is NOT GAY, but guys who do the jonathan lau method are.... HAIZ!!! I don't do what j lau does... It's so...... indecent, almost selling himself as a.... *gossip gossip*!
Para is not a feminine game...

Went to kaiquan's house today... Well, tommy is applying for rjc and lots of others are all making use of "dsa"... He was going to rjc later to send in his application... Kq uses the tv monitor as a computer monitor! So interesting... His mother was like, so kind... Didn't exactly see the whole house but could tell that it was so very heavenly, but the trip up would not be the better part of the visit... That's also where i got that jealousy... Don't tell you why!

Tomorrow leaving for Bintan in Indonesia... Somehow, there is no excitement, no joy and no enthusiasm... Many people want me to play different things: dota, mu private serv, ro private serv, a3, maple.... It really binds me to the computer... Not that i'm complaining... :P My brother so franctically looking for ro private serv... Can find but cannot play, so disheartening...

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5:33 pm

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Promises... Do i keep them often? I try to, yes i do... Unless i can't afford to put in the effort. What i regret most about myself is promises, empty ones, exaggerating ones, unrealistic ones that i make, only to find myself caught in a situation where i can't achieve it. Well, i try to abide by my word, so i will go out to try and accomplish the thing, or stick to a plan, a decision. I can' tell myself i didn't try, but i feel so despicable and guilty, lifting the hopes of people, hoping to earn their trust, only lose it within a short time frame... Other commitments? WTW! I made promises while knowing i had other commitments and restrictions... To the 9 people i have made promises to and still remember but couldn't keep them, i'm so sorry and apologise... I will continue to try to alter it, though the time may be like, LONG GONE! The guilt is not the only reason why i'm still trying to achieve, but the inconvenience caused may be a bit too much! What i am very afraid of are 2 things: ignorance to the effort put in at the end and the forgetfulness of that person that i made a promise long ago about it... It is no where near their faults, i caused this to happen anyway.... Haiz, LORD, help me!!

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3:00 pm

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Long time since i blogged... Well, 4 days considered long? Maybe not la, considering the fact that some don't even update!!! -.-" alford, aaron and richard just left... Quite relieved... I'm quite sure they bored themselves to death, at least they can enjoy the journey home... Better than here anywayz...

I now know how much my mother loves me! I was expecting her to get extremely angry when my friends poped by, not that they were here, but that i would be re-living something that happened... NO WAY! I love this bunch! My mother can tell! She's so nice! KFC for lunch! So heavenly! If i were to predict what they are saying, it would be that my house is very BORING! They were here like, sianzedified... Haiz... Don't know what to do to... Talk a bit and then sit there watch tv and stone... That guilty feeling i have right now is a bit weird, most people say they have it, but what can you do about it? Haiz, i'm really sorry guys... Did i really sound as if i wanted you to go home that badly? I didn't want you to die of sheer BOREDOM, but with my mum around, the freedom is tightened... I much wanted you to stay ba, i'm bored alone... You think i want you to leave meh? OMY! Whatever la... History homework now! Yippie! >.<

Well, people would want the best for themselves... But, consider how others would react... Nah... My sarcasm is just for the fun of it... Don't take them too heavily... It's not that it is "the best" for me, but i don't want to hao lian, and i am really that gullible... If i were to act, i want to act not like me wat! XIAO! Act like girl really that good ahz? Not the least good for me! I mean... You know.... Yar.... It's just how i am... Know why i left Maris Stella already? Sarcasm is my way of saying: "I don't know what to say, and i don't want to say the wrong thing" Haiz... :'(

Hee... People think that a person like me would have many secrets... Well, i have la, but only 1... And that 1 is not that dark also... So, don't keep bugging me yar? The neoprint in my wallet is not an achievement! It's a friend thingy... Forever sistas! Got it?? Nothing wrong with boys taking right? Yar, whatever la... Photoprints can put "sistas" and "brudders" with me 1... So GRRRLL!!! *sticks out fist*

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5:17 pm

Friday, June 10, 2005

There is no reason to get worked up in a game where it's a team event and someone made a mistake, right? I mean, if it's really sheer stupidity and unintelligence, then i understand... But if it's a newness to a game then it should be disregarded right? Then once that person is a pro, scold all you like, but not too rough... lolx...

I hope i can begin my work which i so do not have the drive to do... I see dexter, OMY! I'm like, awed! Hardworking to the CORE! lolx... He must have a good plan... A very very systematical plan... That's what i must have too! Then most probably i will do work with fun! But when do i start?

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9:32 pm

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Long time i have not blogged! I so like my blog!! Lately, i've been busy, with messages at some nights, frequent outings with heeboon and liangyu for neoprints and visits to lan shops... No motivation to study! How can i ever study without the motivation? God is helping me, so i must try!!!! Cut down on my outings? Sleep less? Like not sleep like the whole day of saturday... which i DID! >.<

Good news and bad news... Bad news first! I'm BROKE! Let me see... Monday, did i play lan? Tuesday, how much roti prate did i eat? Wednesday, wre neoprints cheap? Thursday, can the para temptation be easily resisted? Friday, comforts of a taxi is irresistible! How bad can that get? Bad news... my mood just does not seem to improve... Why is this so? What is the root of the problem? The source... The origin...

There's this thing about my mum... She wants me to work hard for my exams... That's not bad... But a little letting lose often is much appreciated right? And i mean, she doesn't give pressure, but she will keep those "lectures and coaxes" even though it is useless and meaningless... I mean, is it necessary to tell me that o levels are important? Am i not already working hard? A few As and Bs with no trace of a C and below! Wah! I don't call this tyco, thanks to the work of God and mine! Does my As and Bs drop from the sky? I don't think so right??? I also know that my As in o level do not drop from the sky... but if i am capable of those results, don't you think i know what i am doing? Just a little bit more hard work sooner than later... that's all... Right? My dad is just.... over emotional? Or is it exaggerating? Err... maybe sarcastic? I probably got genes from him... MOSTLY from my MUM?? NO LA!!!!! OMY! You think???

My classmates are a nice bunch... Peer pressure? NAH~! But there's the stressful part... Let me name 41 *LOVES* and 6 *NOT SO LOVES* of my SECONDARY CLASSMATES and SCHOOLMATES, CHINESE TUITION MATES and CELL MATES... :

Loves first: You...

1)know when to be serious and when to go wild

2)know what is too much to ask and too little!

3)can share with me your thoughts

4)treat me with much respect

5)always make me smile under your innocence!

6)are finally treating me like a BOY! *muacks* :P

7)can relate to everybody well

8)being there for me always

9)always treat what wrong i do as an accident

10)try your best to keep me occupied

11)bask in my intrests! AH HAH! :P

12)never end your chain of thoughts so dainty

13)share your DARKEST secrets with me...

14)treat my objects with respect

15)make me feel like i am involved

16)create a suttle mood

17)never fail to be there with me

18)never fail to inform me of very "interesting" things

19)remind me to stay away from SIN

20)teach me the EQ skills i need

21)never fail to please me with your antics

22)share your experiences all the time

23)seriously, MAN, i feel like a... NVM!

24)are less guilty and relate well

25)don't force me to do things i dislike

26)torture the teachers which i find hilarious

27)can lend a listening ear

28)educate me about the complex mind of one

29)assist me in school work

30)bear in mind that i have a heart and treat me the nicest

31)protect me without fail

32)have a perverse mind yet serious when i want it

34)accompany me when i require it

35) definitely brighten my day

36)remind me that GOD is number 1!

37)love me!

38)put me in your mind

39)consider what i would like and do it

40)take initiative to make my life easier!

41)do not differentiate a c-c and a normal guy!

42)give me encouragement

Not so loves: You...

1)act to make me change my mind

2)confuse me

3)harass me and keep irritating me

4)ignore me! :'(

5)present sarcasm to such a high extent

6)alienate me

This only applies to peers, mates and friends... Hahaz.. How i wish i could be almost 60% invloved in the individual lives... It would be so intimate a relationship... Teasure it and adore it? YES!! NO DOUBT! I LOVE YOU!

Good news... I am hoping for a 75-80/80 for my test today! MUAHAHAHAH! What about it? I was a bit careless at one point.... But fortunately i altered it near the end... I'm so happy i could so the similarity question! It is like, the first time in my life that i have solved this kind of a question! lolx! Yea... LAN tomorrow... I hope...

barked at
7:24 pm

Sunday, June 05, 2005

It's Sunday morning, and i'm full of reverence and tlc(if you don't know wat t-l-c is, it is not tables-ladders-chairs)... No cell today as my leader has something on... His mission trip begins next week... Hope for the best! David, go to the ends of the earth!

2 days ago, i was out on the 3rd, the night with the band's aesthetique, with an "e" between "a" and "s"... Lots to say... MUAHAHAHA!

Firstly, i begin at the afternoon, around 2.30pm... At paradiz... Oops! Yar... lan with peesheng and joey.... Yes... Lost... Yes... dota!! lolx... Well, we went to Zone X and the X Square... Rushed over to city hall to eat and then met up with tbt and javier and weebeng... One thing about tbt: his walk is equals to a jog... I asked him how long it took to get to victoria concert hall... "5-10 mins jiu dao le"... I asked javier... "about 20 mins or more" See??? tbt walks like... CP30! Should have had a golden helmet and metallic body on him... Would have matched! BT4635? Maybe... lolx!!

Secondly, the actual concert... Erm, don't want to discourage the performers... So... Nice job!! Let me see... I actually liked 3 parts... The entrance of the concert band, JERICHO and the encores... A concert, regardless of what genre, dancing, rock.... As long as they make you want to do what they were doing, it was a success... I reached that point listening to Jericho... A bit late, but still, it managed to entice me... Abba encore was my favourite... Somewhat considered a remix, and i simply ADORE remixes... Dancing queen, Mama mia, Al fernando, Winner takes it all... Enjoyed that i did... aaron wanted me to include this: cristian was wearing a blue robe and a PINK hat... And aaron was lol-ing throughout... luke and his friend saw us and said that we were a noisy bunch, couldn't agree more... I saw a family of seven leave, and my two very GOOD friends wanted to LEAVE during the alumni!! >.< Well, we did leave during the school song, my GOOD PARA friend pulled me along... Not my fault! :P Overall, $12 was worth it... at least i got to see the people i was looking out for!

Thirdly, we visited Zone X again in jubilee... Yesss.... For that machine... AGAIN! I arrived home at 11.30 ++ Quite a nice time outdoors, but home is the warmest, safest and the best!!

barked at
12:26 am

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Something happened during oral yesterday which made me very.... i don't even know how to put it... Sad, wrongly accused, yet angry and frustrated. Someone accused me of having my phone on during the oral and that it vibrated during his oral examination which caused him to lose concentration! Wrongly accused! My phone was off! Serene had to apologise to me after she accused me of leaving it on and having it vibrate when she was examining my classmate and got a shock of her life when she picked it up and saw that it was not even ON! Imagine how dis heartening it will feel. What's worse was that he told everyone about it but me... It's like, he wants to vent his disappointment to everyone and leave it as it is! He looked at me after the oral and there was no expression... dead... Not even my fault... Why must he do this to me? Am i not his friend? Or am i transparent? Maybe he doesn't want to blow it up? But why not tell me privately then? Tell others? WHY? He thinks it is no big deal? His oral is a big deal to me! He doesn't want me to feel that i created the problem? It wasn't me in the 1st place anyway! Maybe what he did was not wrong, i may be angry and sad for NOTHING! After all, he should be feeling agitated that his oral was a disaster... But what has it got to do with me? I did not cause it... Please can we patch it up? Please?

Madagasca today was nice... Just that it was too short! I was like, broke and kaiquan had to lend me money to redeem the coupon... Phew... Movie + popcorn, drinks etc only costs me $5! lolx! Few people are willing to watch a show like that... eric and ben showed up... HAPPY HAPPY! lolx...

barked at
12:50 pm

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Oral today was simply gorgeous, simply exciting! I had seren and danny, and they were like, trying to act interested... I could tell that they had really tired eyes from the heavy eyebags... I found it rather a breeze to relate to them, after all, seren taught me before and danny was sooo friendly! A successful oral exam!

Dota again! Raiders, afternoon, blah blah blah.... This time, li kai, marcus huang and kaiquan and joey played. Joey was experienced, got about 6 kill frag! Not bad at all!!! The other 3 "noobs" were not very noobie with marcus huang as an exception, for he like, got killed at least 40 times, and since i was his opponent, he practically spoon fed me! richard and joosiong showed up and i was hoping that that someone came along but he didn't... :'( O well, i was crystal all the way and like, ending the "holey sheet" of richard! OMY lo!!!! I was like, leveling when his bounty showed up from invisible mode and i froze him, nova him, did ulti, attack him and he just died like that lo! OMY! I killed richard's bounty!!! Well, i had refresher orb, perserverance, power treads and point booster... Was about to get heart (just for fun, followed by stygan :P) but died too many times that i forgot about it... joosiong and richard team very xiong! very scared of them le... Another set of "cheaty" heros: Bounty and Luna.... grrrrllll.... Anywayz, marcus huang, kai quan and li kai all had 2 kills each... So quite an improvement! Somemore the people they killed were the "pro-er"s lo... aaron, me, joosiong and richard all tio (obviously ks!) ... Dwarven sniper, clinkz and revenant... Actually the more pro characters.... O well...

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9:29 pm