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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

I am now blogging at jeremytiong's house and his dog is running all over me! It is sooooooooooooooooooo cute and very very active! It's a she! Females are more aggressive, well yea... It loves to bite people and this jack russel is soooooooooo loving... I want to bring it home... Struggling on jeremy right now... drool! OMY!

Oral just now was partially problematic... I was like, not counted right??? and everyone was like, YES!!! for your 1st three months! OMY! I should have done a better job for the listening... BUT NO COPYING! So yea, sense of satisfaction! For oral we had 2 very weird questions! NKF donations through prizes and creativity building up in students in our school! What the... I was like... HUH??? And i decided that i will just li ti and talk nonsense... So i DID! FAIL LA! Never mind... All it matters is that it is in the past...

SIANZ! Tomorrow got english oral! I feel like it's a huge burden of languages exams on my shoulders, all agree right???? I want to play my game!!! Maybe i'll play later! Hahaz...

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10:26 am

Monday, May 30, 2005

First thing's first, ***SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM***!!! A real OMYACIOUS TEST!!! Let me go through the horrors of today's chinese o levels...

1st, letter writing, OMY! I write wrong question number, i think! So b****y! They switched the questions around and i wrote 2 for formal letter!!!!! OMY!!!! What's worse, that nobody found out, except dear liangyu, is thta the formal letter writing is not TELEVISION guang bo.... It's RADIO guang bo!!!! OMY!!! Throughout i put guan zhong, dian shi jie mu..... OMY!

2nd, composition.... Should have been easy right? >.< I saw the clock: 9.00am... I thought to myself, "S**T! Only "1" hour left!!!" and i rushed through the thing! I'm so blur!!! The thing ends at 1030! not 1000!!!! I managed to finish at 1000 and wondered why the teacher never call out the last 15 mins thingy.... And i screamed in my head when i saw the "ENDING TIME:1030" sign.... CRAPPY!

3rd, tian xie han zi, total failure, i just learnt qian song yesterday, and i forgot. Wat li lin i have never SEEN before! So GRRRRL!!! It is secondary 2 word which i have NEVER learnt! HAIZ!

4th, the xu ci so tricky i got only 2 or 3 correct.... So OMY!!!! The scary thing is everybody got the others correct and smiled all over lo!

5th,wan cheng ju zi, the 2nd 1 very hard to lian.... wat que neng.......... Very hard to lian jie! Zao ju i ALL DON'T KNOW! It's as if i forgot how to write my name! I did it the day before and did wrongly! Absolutely gone case!!!!

6th, i'm skipping zong he tian cong to li jie ce yan... Two questions were so tricky that 8 people can have 4 different answers... ALL TOTALLY DIFFERENT! liangyu and i got different answers, so..... byebye!!!

Li jie wen da should not be too much of a problem.... But i felt that it could have been a bit too easy! What's done is done anyway... No turning back! All in GOD's hands.... PRAISE YOU LORD! THANK YOOOOOOOUUUU!!!! Amen...

Out of the topic: Para! More and more people to compete for that machine nowadays, by boys and girls alike.... Is it going to be in a craze? I really can't imagine anyone else from my class other that 4 of us playing it.... Lolx! liangyu and heeboon wanna learn? shaun g, julius, anyone want to learn? I know choy is very interested in me playing... RIGHT? ;P But, yes... Not only para, but dota also... mandy play like, chose sa and start OWNING! Girl somemore... OMY! Lolx... But, yea... haiz...

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7:06 pm

Saturday, May 28, 2005

2 more days to our first o level examination! Really feeling the stress!! >.< Not enough time!!!

I don't want to brag, i don't want to be arrognat, i don't want to be proud, i don't want to demoralise people, so i shall not say what position i am in class... And i can understand that 4-6 people won't tell... They will stamp their foot and say,"Wa lau, that f****t got......" and walk away.... OOPS... ;P

Today we had like a little session with xie in school... She wanted to give us a little tuition, but we ended up copying the sentences and shouting answers... lolx! She treated us to pizza! It's like... OMY! and mrs tan brought in drinks and kitkat bars... I deduced this: they are RICH! OMY! and yar, they really want us to do well! Must get A1! MUST MUST MUST! But dota first... then A1... :P

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5:50 pm

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Am i full of pretension? Or am i dull? Or am i lame? Or am i ignorant? I can't tell what you think... and i want to know... I'm not sure you can tell what i feel, so this bloggie is here to show you what i really mean...

Unlike the depressing moments of yesterday, today was rather different... I saw my desired smiles from everybody! How lifting it is to see that vibrantness in the alluring faces of them... It is simply so.... OMYACIOUS! *MELTS* lolx... Yar... rather a blessing to enjoy their presence, tresting me like any other, not a freak, though the common criticisms are hurled, but, WHO CARES? I'm LOVING it... *MUACKS*

Carrie is the 4th AMI!! YEA! Support her since the time i saw her on tv... And now, she's like the best! Her "Angels Brought Me Here" and "Independance Day" are the nicest songs i have ever heard in the AMI series.... Best singer also... Wonder when her album is coming out? Buy it for sure...

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6:04 pm

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

I don't know why... But bloggie seems to be the only thing to do now a days... I don't know what God's plan for me is... but in the meantime, i have my blogg...

Carrie rocks... Nicest song she sang at the finals... OMY!!! Such excellence, grace, poise, serenity... Takes some worries off my mind...

Loneliness, singleness, all by myself... Hahaz... Sounds all so sad, depressing, miserable... How can i feel like that everyday? It's not as if i don't have my happy moments... The smiles... The smiles they give to me... That's all i want... Who's smiles... those special few to me... School is like a movie i watch alone, where everyone are actors in a screen... Acting a show for somebody else, but unknowingly is seen by me... Nobody to actually play with, slap, punch, hug, kiss, snuggle, kick, pinch, cuddle, holler, shout, scream, blast, confront, comfort in... Or is it just me? I hope... Maybe it's the actions i do... Doing things i shouldn't and making people angry... Or it's the in ability to own up, or speak up, or open up... Due to seriousness? Holiness i hunger? High expectations for myself? Or for that person? Or maybe i'm just plain lame? Or it could be the fact that i find no common traits i share with anybody? I want to be able to get involved in their lives, them to be involved in mine and sow care and concern... I want LOVE, CARE, CONCERN, ULTIMATE ATTENTION... childish dreams to get that? I want to be able to be able to embrace that person in public without that person caring about embarassment... Can i change? Be the most popular? Most liked? Most loved? Most desired? Most lusted? Or should they change? No... It's never their fault... So it's mine? Must be... So i feel so alone because of my own faults? Maybe they do not know i love them... I do not mind the insults, fingers pointing at me, the disregard, neglegience... But they do... Live with it... How can i? I am who i am... I turned out to be like that... God doesn't make mistakes... Maybe i did... On my journey here... It was so painful... Now it seems to be better... Or not? I become disliked cause i'm like "THAT"? It does seem that way... But i like being like this... It prevents unrighteousness... Or doesn't it? There's the b***hiness of this character... That's unholy... I must apologise... Or maybe i do it too much? Sensitive? Yea.... Haiz... It's a lie to say you don't care what they feel... You want them to be happy, the best they can be... too much to ask? I will just go on consoling myself... True love never dies... This is not true love... Or is it? Sometimes, certain things happen that you do not want to happen, but it does... So... N-O one can blame me... And the blame from a problem caused by someone else cannot be placed on the innocent... But do i not have a partial fault to play? Things can be done to alter the event... Doesn't matter... Who would read to here? lolx... Argh... Got to go clean my tears...

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3:28 pm

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

I had my spectacles done on like 21st... It was somewhat weird visiting the same spectacle guy again in 6 months... or was it less? I think it was less... >.< In retrospect, i had 2 pairs already and i lost both of them... Was like, totally sad... Hmm... for me, the third thing lasts... My 3rd handphone, 3rd wallet... so i'm hoping God removes my absentmindedness and give me the wonderful ability to remember where i "misplaced" my items...

The way it seems in school does not always appeal to me... It's as if u want to say something to everybody u meet and that i know... But a mere "hi" feels so hard for fear he doesn't respond... Ewww... Feels like rejection at times... I hate rejection!!!! Easily can tell when someone doesn't really like you... When he is so happy, smiling and everything and you try to tell him something, he gets your attention and his mood changes... The dark solemn "SIANZ!" face they show gives you the impression that either:

he's trying hard to smile and can let go that hypocrite face when talking to u...

he's irritated by your call...

he's just plain weird...

I rule the 3rd one out... How can someone in catholic high be weird? I mean... they have their unique abilities but they are not starnge... Conclusion: they don't like me at all... Sometimes you run out of things to say... Why? No bonding!!! I can go on and on with some people and i really enjoy it... But for some... Haiz... But it's okies... Used to it... LOLX! God LOVES ME!

2 places i like better than school... (Home excluded cause home is where the heart is): Church, Tuition teacher's house... I mean... the ultimate goal is to glorify God's name right? Then it would be eternal joy in the heaven with Him... So must start by not being a hypocrite, blockhead and c².... Set an example... By the way... i will change! Relieve that burden off my shoulders! MUST! Anywayz........ Church is a place where i don't worry what other people think... Only centred at God... Tuition centre is actually liangyu's house.... So... with liangyu, heeboon and ian to LOL, obviously, i will LOL with them.... LOLX!

My mummy locked up the other computer... So... GRRRLLLL!!! whatever.... i don't think she realised we have this computer i'm using now... She like totally barred it up by pasting black sheets of paper on the screen and signing on them so that i would not replace them and used it... Little did she know... i can use this one also! MUAHAHAHAHA!

I'm beginning to think that chinese is just a minor setback in my secondary life and that it will not affect me much... So... i basically... HECK! A1.... no biggie right? OMY! hahaz.... Yupps... i'll try to get that A1 the people around me so strongly believe i can get... Keyword: TRY... :P

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7:42 pm

Sunday, May 22, 2005

A new bloggie layout! Hope u all like it! Really... It is so much more original... i hope... I appreciate all ur comments and critics... Erm... i find that it takes alot of effort and time... so i don't think i would ever be changing much now.... Besides, it's my own personal 1... Trying to improve still though...

I can't blog much longer... FULL CONC on chinese o lvls.... MUAHAHAH! A1!!

barked at
10:07 pm

Friday, May 20, 2005

Finally the starting of the major exams are all here!!! And i'm still slacking! Chinese coming up muz really pia... Hope i get A1 la.... So... must start studying... 1 last day of para and viola.... MUG!!!!! How often am i gonna blog then? Not very often la...

Today's english paper: compo, okies.... situational writing, okies.... compre, hard.... summary, OMYACIOUS! i can't believe i could not find any points at all!! 1st draft had like 70 words and the 2nd had 250... xiao lohz.... haiz... At least it was better than cheena! grrrlll....

Finally got to play wif jason they all... lolx!! so fun.... yesterday got monster kill... today only 1 kill, but we still won... even though was 6 kills v 20+ at the end... lolx... A strong heros not necessary means a victorious game....

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9:39 pm

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

It has been a seriously terrible day for me... VERY VERY DEPRESSING!! **SCREAMS** *tears welling up in eyes* It's no wonder why i did so badly in today's chines paper la... I didn't study the correct thing... Half way during the test i suddenly saw how ignorant and over confident i was... That really turns things around... it shows me that my chinese literally er.... SUX? OMY! I found out that i had like 2/5 of the marks earned so far... Gong han confirm gone case... I wrote like... Suggestion only... but it was complain and suggestion... DARN!!! fewer people like wrote the si han... so wat lohz... then that c cube say wat:"na xie mei you zuo question one de ren ying gai ma... wo bu jiu shi bai lai le gong jiao? lang fei shen ming?" If i forgot then? can only blame myself... Depressed... *SOB SOB SOB.... WAIL WAIL* Can someone gimme a big hug? and maybe a peck on my cheek? I will appreciate it! Aaron gian's mummy messaged me and asked me if chinese was really that hard... OMY! ~DUH~ wat u think? ur chinese pro la... I nothing to say...

The individual romance stories are always the nicest esp if they are real... OMY! I love talking to ppl on the phone and squeezing out their love story.... wedding bells ringing soon? Invite me ahz!! LOLX!!! i can ask them and they like give in after much persuation... then the juicy story can really make u cry sometimes.... I wonder.... will i have my own story? My very own level 25 huntress(in terms of dota) swooping a pathetic level 6 silencer onto her beast, or a level 25 lina "laguna-ing" a shadow stalker attacking a pathetic level 6 dragonite... OMY!!! My dream only... :P can i ever find the right her? I hope so...

barked at
5:34 pm

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

I had the most re-assuring talk last night which kinda left me thinking abt the qualities of a perosn he or she should posses... Imagine someone who does not believe in the thought of doing what he or she believes is right... I mean, he knows doing something is right for him but he doesn't act upon it... It doesn't mean that it will benefit others directly or in directly, but at least his heart is "pure"... Looking at it in a spiritual perspective, as Christians, we must be holy and do what we know God would approve and encourage... not so that we can do wonders on earth but it's the mere fact that we exalt our creator... Wonders may be one of the ways it happens... So, yea... Do what u know is right, not what u believe is...

Chinese is like the worst subject anyone could get... I find it a bother to try and memorise a result of disobedience to God... Grrrrllll.... At least twe has the decency to postpone ss test to next week!!! ^^

barked at
7:23 pm

Monday, May 16, 2005

I like the way we can patch it up and i can pray for us... I can imagine myself becoming your best friend and you becoming mine... How can i keep such things a secret any longer? And i just want to say that i am sorry also for all the wrong and bad things i have done and so irresponsibly forgotten... Thank you for being there for me... ~Ezbz~

Dear Lord, thank you for everything! You deserve the most highest point in my life and you are there to stay... Thanks!! Amen...

barked at
8:40 pm

It is only 4 days to prelims and 2 weeks to o levels... Everybody is like cramming up notes and working very hard... It gets very worrying when you find everybody else working hard and you not working the way you should...

I know i made a small mistake thanks to rayston... omy! thanks for helping thought i didn't need it... Haiz... i must not do it again... why place myself at such scandalous and underhanded methods when i don't require it? I could have easily achieved the results of my desire... Hmph! Must be angelic good boy from now on...

it is obvious God wants me to study... He shows it to me through my parents and friends... my parents all of a sudden agreed to spend $150 on school books and guides so that i could prepare for my studies!!! So good!! My mummy and daddy are like the best to me!!! Dota sux now... big time... I am really really noob at it.... how am i supposed to know wat to buy?? aiya... If i am sentinel, the scourge will be OWNING 9/10 times... sux like..... ARGGGHHH!!!

Sorry if my com is laggy... not ur fault for getting so worked up la... i can understand what u feel... I really cannot go on killing spree when my pc laggs like sheeeeeeet... Haiz... f me all u want la... i dun care anymore... dota can transform a person... I don't like what it can do to the players.... I HATE U DOTA! And i forgive u... NOT U DOTA!!! my fren... i am so sorry.... Forgive me too...

barked at
5:46 pm

Friday, May 13, 2005

I did something very very sinful today if i may use that word... I had assistance in my test... A maths was like sooo easy... should not have accepted the assistance... Haiz... Feel really guilty and regretful!!! Slap myself... :(

Today's sports night was BORING!!!! ate lunch at his house and want straight to school... he pon... Good for him... i was like sleepy at times and very very very very bored... Nothing to do... that saras was like so GRRRLLL!!!! Eclipse casted and she confiscated jon's phone when ben was playing it... So teartish!! does she expect us to cheer when nothing is happening at that time? I don't think so lo!!! Haiz... Edward came in 2nd... no too bad i must say... i left early to get my bag at aaron's house... It's my perogative to go home at that point of time anyways...

I'm guessing that i would have alot of begging for forgiveness... haiz... Nvm... Don't do it next time...

barked at
10:20 pm

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

4.30am... I woke up and stared at the fully lit room... The half done hmwk on the bed and my hp on the floor(it was on my hand).... till i fell asleep frm my short rest after studying for 20 mins for e maths at 10.20pm the night before... So i got up, packed my bag and finished studying my e maths... coz of the test coming in like 5 hours later... how lartagic i felt!!! >.<

Pissy teachers:chia cube and mr tan... scary lohz... they were like "u think it's funny shaun goh?!?!?!?!?!" and "wu wen jun, ni gei wo dao general ofice qu!!!!" waaaaah... all aim shaun goh... poor thing... must say that it's not totally their fault again... they look all so stressed and almost reaching "can't be bothered" stage... They decided to be teachers, go figure!!!

So ya, e maths test... how should i say? EASYBUSY!!!!! OMY!!! lolx... 27/30 i think can get... Kui i only study for an hour at max... Amazingly, i got a 19/30 for english test... and for chinese mid year, i got 64.6%! a bare B3!!! Phew... that was my initial target and i achieved it!

DOTA is the 1 of the most highly addictive games i can find... Take me as an example... i can't get off it! played and played too many rounds today already... This was 1 of the reasons why i felt sleepy at night... lagging players made me procrastinate and feel exhausted as well as get angry at them... Yar.. i sarx at DOTA... so wat? quite fun though... Someone like aaron can own me, so almost anyone else can liaoz... hahaz...

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4:52 pm

Monday, May 09, 2005

O MY!!! i'm sooooo sorry aaron!!! i didn't expect to do that... so partially my fault... it's okies if u hate me... but next time it won't happen again... i'm so very sorry... I didn't think he would have actually slappeed that hard... Ow... i feel ur pain... sorry again my freind... I will stop him next time...

School today was kinda boring... imagine geography exercise with psc and history movie wif krishnan... maths was like hmwk and chinese was scolding all day... super boring... i even slept during krishnan's movie... simply could not stay awake... It's juz not my day... esp when u go home wif a heavy heart knowing that u did something bad... T_T

E maths test tomolo and i dun feel like studying... sianz la....

barked at
3:34 pm

Friday, May 06, 2005

Teachers full of PMS today... i dun wanna mention who... but we can tell that they look real freaky and show attitude... Ops! lolx... i dunno why they resort to scolding... they juz stick to teaching wat... if we decide to abandon a subject, it's a strategy for getting into a good skool onli... it's not as if we are not going to not put in effort for the exams... i mean, we decide not to use it for L1R5 but i don't think we would juz leave it as it is rite? Haiz...

Chemistry test i got 35/40!! so happy!!! SS i got 17/25!! so happy!!! history i got 16/25!! so happy!!! lemme think... has anyone gotten a mark of 24/25 for a history PURE S-T-R-U-C-T-U-R-E-D essay test on Malaya had a qn harder than the 1st 1??? Who ah??? dexter sie, i sooo envious of him lohz!!! 24/25!!! L5/12 and L5/12 for both qns... so impressive.... so luvable!!!!! OMY!!!! then when we talking abt dota, he said this:"centaur warchief is like a double edged sword... This double edged sword has its advantages and disadvantages!" -.-" Balanced viewpoint? History!! SUANZ!!!!!!! hahaz... so pro!!!! Shuai DAI!!!!

I can play dota le!!!! wilson, jason, qi chao, darryl, shaun, invite me to play can??? i wanna own u all... :P

Band Astitique(hopefully spelt correctly :P) coming up!! 3rd June at kallang i think.... I wanna go!!! I enjoyed myself alot last year!! Wanna go see dex yt and cristian perform... lolx... support the band!

barked at
8:32 pm

Thursday, May 05, 2005

A physics test and a maths test tomorrow is sooooooooo wrong.. I forgot almost all my maths stuff and physics stuff liaoz... My notes are like all over the place and i cannot find some of them... I lost my a maths tys, geog txtbook and workbook and history modern world txtbook...

-.-" Dun feel like studying for either of them!

I now know that psc dunno how to mark... teach she can... but mark she doesn't even know wat she is saing even wif evidence on my paper... haiz... wat she says i mark down and she tries to defend herself... Fortunately, not all tachers are liddat, or i will teach myself... >.<

Finally the aircon people have repaired the shaft... I cannot sleep for 1 week without aircon for at least 6 of them!!! lolx... At least it's fixed now... Hmm... wonder how i will fair like in the army? O dear.... 3 more years till i have to go.... Pes C-Z!! please!!!!

barked at
5:50 pm

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

I now really feel very bad when i called those teachers bchs... Firstly, they are biased towards me... OHMY! So what if they have a horrid attitude, we shouldn't insult them, bearing in mind that they work sooooo hard for us... yea yea yea... mrs tan is juz sarcastic, xie is juz under pressure, mr wang is juz egoistic, mr p is most prolly juz lonely... Okies... Resolution, I will not call my teachers bches again... Or maybe....

Physics method is totally useless in such a way that 6 mcq qns in 50 mins is not very helpful ya?

Assembly today was like omyacious!!!! It's like one of those kiddie shows i remember when i was 6 that had those sing alongs.... AHAHAHA! puppetry i think... quite professional in puppetry and sound effects but the entertainment was like... errr........... LOLX!!! hee... kinda nice if i could see th front... i tried to inch close and closer in front but haiz.... richard ah... u ar.... >.<

Lemme see, the stress level when u have to finish up hmwk by the end of the day will make u blow... screaming is my way of saying:"leave me alone for now please!" and i totally hate it when they pile it further... but i guess they have lotsa problems too... Aww... watever la...

Watched Lord Of The Dance! Sooooooooo nice and amazing the way they dance....Whenever i see performance, i sometimes wish i were part of it... dunno why la... the irish dancers very pro.... tap feet at abt 5-8 times a second lo!!! sad thing ended late... 11 plus... sad... OMY! Hahaz... hmm... maybe one day got para performance.... OOooooooOOOOOOOoooOoOooooooooOooooOO!!!!

barked at
4:21 pm

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

I replaced the song to something relevant wif this blog... Suteki da ne is so much nicer...

I hear all these "love stories" coming frm church and school and they all sound all so romantic and good to be true... its like boy meets gal, gal likes boy, boy likes gal, and POOF! All too good to be true... Could it like ever happen to me? maybe, maybe not... Could be a tom :P, lolx, nah... I have my perfect match... Let's use analogies... Ragnarok online: If i were an acolyte- ONLY an acolyte, she would be a hunter or crusader... :) not the other way around! I want protection!! Feel safe and secure behind the shield of my female crusader or the crossbow of my huntress... LOLX!

raymond lost his phone but remembered my number! so touched! he forgot his mother's number and could remember mine... well, mine was quite ez to remember too...

during chinese today, i got a shock when i looked at xie's hair... i think she waxed it! u can tell the diff at the back! i like looked at it and tried hard not to laugh too much... Then she said she wanted to record her voice in the cd and said that we couldn't spread.... Scared what copyrighted... mella said that she could use a low tone... peesheng heard and said in a very very OMY low tone:"yeeee-fuuuuuu tarck haooooooo...." i was like rofl and teared... SO FARNIE!!!!!!!! peesheng always brightens my day...

It really saddens me when i feel like someone i like doesn't like me... dream abt that person oso won't change a thing... how i wish i could take a mind reading machine and place it in that person's head... then they will understand....

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6:40 pm